my sorrows

Farewell.

2009-06-02T00:11:00.000-07:00

Its time i guess.
Memories are everywhere, and this blog is one place where i could look back to those wonderful memories.
Thus, not deleting this blog.
Too many sweet memories. ;)
Thus i announce,

~BLOG OFFICIALLY CLOSED~

Goodbye Kaitina. May this nick lingers in the past..

PS: Peeps who pass by here, you may view me at http://baitina.multiply.com ;)

hehe

2009-04-02T14:56:00.000-07:00

A pupil just asked me whether do i want her abang's handphone no.

Amboi PROMOTE NAMPAK!!!

hahahahahhahaha.

hur hur. .

2009-04-02T04:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we are amazed at how small the world is. . .

Aini meets Comat and then met Dol thru Comat. Aini went out with Dol but cldnt click. Aini avoided Dol and got together with Comat. Comat and Dol are good friends.

Aini and Bibah are friends. Aini founds out tat Bibah is Comat's ex girlfriend. She also finds out that Bibah is best friends with her cousin, Tipah.

And then Aini finds out Comat is her sedara jauh.

Small world eh. Maybe Taufik Batisah my sedara jauh too. Who noes. ehehe..

weee.

2009-04-01T17:03:00.000-07:00

The Starhub ppl will be coming over to my place next week.
Anyway, baru ku dpt tau ada 2 home line pe!!!!! Siang2 ku da warning familyku yg lagik satu tu aku nyer sorang jek. And aku jer yg leh angkat. mana tau scandal yg ke 69 kol nak tanya kabar. muahahaha.

K next nak kena tukar my mobile to starhub lak.. -_- masih ngah decide nak tukar no. ke tk nie. da pakai this no. for so long, mcm ada feelings lak..

10 things.

2009-03-31T04:01:00.000-07:00

Life's been great. . Summarisation. .

Been busy with preparation for upcoming Sunday. . with the first love. Got a chance to work with those i've never worked before. . great ppl they are. . people who could go far. . Lepas training jer jamming. . The same people who keep laughing bila ku main rebana. . tau la ku main ngan muka2. Korang mana paham. . expression tu important ok!! Tapi paling best gak bila lepas training ada org antar balik.. save duit transport!! ;p
Applied for school . . kalo dpt, july la masuk. Kalo tk dpt, den terpaksa kawin buat anak la. .
This coming monday interview at _____ Primary. Wish me gd luck!!!!
Next week da start ajar tuition. . harap2 bdk yg aku ajar tu ada abg2 hensem!!
My home will be using starhub in a week's time. . free OUTGOING calls from home!!Woohoo!
Frens, lets plan next outing aite?
HAPPY BDAY CHOMBZ, RABBERDUCK & BINIKU!! Tua ahh korang.
Bought something which i've been wanting to learn for very very long time. . Will d0 my best. . walaupun boleh muntah darah when teaching me. hahahah
Me: " Alarhh asal tak leh simpan fringe? Dahi aku jendul sehh. Nanti orang tau aku PANDAI. HAHAHA "
I have not changed. . im still the same old me, only i've stopped waiting and looking back for the past. .

Fishy Smell? Hmm..

2009-03-25T05:42:00.000-07:00

I have been trying to find a bag yg shiny2 nyer tat cld be sling.. tapi so far could only find handbag.. FINALLY last sat went to expo Robinson's sale and found it!! Ada bling2 somemore.. IMMEDIATELY changed my bag and went to watch production, to Geylang then to Tanjong Rhu with the MonMons.. Then on Monday i brought the bag to work..Then at nite at dk Yaty tegur that i smell FISHY. Ku mcm bau ikan eh!!! and i smelt myself, YAH ADA!!! Tros fikiran asal eh leh bau ikan.. padahal aku nie tk mkn ikan nyer org.. tk jln pon pat pasar pe.. worst part is lepas tu ku tumpang a MAMAT HENSEM car.. asal larh dia kena tumpang time aku ngah smell FISHY..

Back at home ku masih tak puas aku ke bau fishy.. Smelt my whole body, sampai kaki2 semua(HAHA).. and then i saw my bag. Somehow at that point of time bag tu mcm suspicious jek.. mcm mintak kena cium... AND BETUL EH ITS THE BAG!! Amcm leh bau ikan nie?!!!!

Complicated story

2009-03-24T03:59:00.000-07:00

Its hard to control where feelings are involved.
I made a wrong decision yesterday and there's no turning back cuz i've sunk deeper into the mistake. Guiltiness is what im feeling .. towards another lady whom i do not even know personally.. Its because im a lady too thus i truly understand her feelings..
The decision was based on my feelings..
Im ashamed of myself for being selfish.. but there's no turning back..unless i chose to..

Lazy

2009-03-24T03:00:00.000-07:00

I need a maid to clean up my table pls!! I AM SO LAZY

A new hobby

2009-03-22T19:44:00.000-07:00

Dabes P5 Camp.. skrg nak kena prepare for Sports Day lak. Im in the Blue house.. and guess what. Im in charge of CHEERLEADING team eh!! hahahaha. wahh. Of all ppl, me eh. Da lah joget mcm katak.. The first and LAST time i did cheerleading was in Sec 1 eh.. tat time kirakan mindset bdk2 nnyer..fikir kalo join cheerleading mesti ku HOT giler nyer..pedas larh sangat. HAHHAAH!

And seriously i cannot imagine myself having to shake the pom poms and shouting .. so GIRLY, GELI..and i hope nobody takes video.. hahaha..mana tau kena pakai miniskirt ke.. haha!

Patutlah sikit hari aku nk sngat main maracas.. Practise beb.. hehehehehehe..

eUrgh.. lapar!!

2009-03-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

I cant believe i ate one packet of large french fries jek today. Ok fine mmg the calories is like 83942094023 but for a day's of meals?! All because MALAS nak check periuk, MALAS nak kunyah, MALAS nk tgk makanan. I love it when im stressed. Thats the only time i become thinner.

Tapi skrg LAPAR pulak. Maybe thats why i cannot sleep. Cuz my stomach is making music now.. dgr dgn teliti, mcm lagu dk pon ada.. tak deng deng.. pakbingbing.. ke tak ke tak.. kalimah secebisss bla bla bla..

Tml i make sure i eat something as big as a human being to make up for today.

Kawin lari for 3 days!

2009-03-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

3 days! Will be back on Wed morning. Don't miss me ok!
If you still miss me like crazy, you are welcomed to give me a call at my mobile. Sms pon jadi larh. Will reply in 5 mins. Away2 pon tapi masih pat SG ..so takd extra charge.DO NOT WORRY. haha. Anyway. skrg da 12.25am and i haven pack my bag.. and 7.30am nak kena report. hur hur. Im sure i will be 390343 times more blacker(fana konfem jadi lesbian pasal nie), and 3094398430 times thinner cuz the food sucks to the max. Tringat seh last yr ku mkn satu sudu nasi jer for dinner.

Paling impt nk bawak Nintendo DS ku pasal konfem boring pat sana...weeeee~

Decision

2009-03-04T03:59:00.000-08:00

Is it time to move on?

One d0wn..

2009-02-23T17:57:00.000-08:00

My cousin just passed away yesterday due to a motorbike accident in Malacca. His whole family lives in Malacca.While all the other families are rushing over, my family is stuck here cuz my dad could not get leave. But we are going soon on one of the weekends.

Moga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang beriman.

tired

2009-02-21T02:56:00.000-08:00

It is supposed to be fun BUT...
Seriously..i cannot wait for the next and the next one!!
Den maybe after that then we will come back to this one. If we all still have the heart to make IT work.

One word to sum it all. --> ARGHHH!!!

long long time never bl0g. .

2009-02-17T03:18:00.000-08:00

Pekakku semakin menjadi2 eh. *raise kening at Nyeng*

Fana: Tina, ketiak kau basah.
Me: Huh? serious pe? *checks*
Fana: HAHAHAHAH!! Aku cakap TEKAK ko larh!
Us: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!

Life's been great with great people all around. Yang tak great nyer, bsk kena main volleyball pat sekolah. I dun mind the exercise, cuz I REALLY NEED IT. But, tk pandai ah main ball ball nie semua. hehe.

Went to the Old Folks Home just now and the kids played board games with the senior citizens there. It saddens me if they were there cuz their children do not want to take the extra effort to take care of them. Bodoh nyer org. Felt like crying cuz im reminded by my arwah grandparents the instant i saw them. I cant imagine when my parents get old just like them.. cuz by then i wld noe they will leave us sooner or later. ='( Skrg jer my dad says org semua slalu offer their seats to him in the bus. So i said larh, " Org pon slalu offer Nur seat pat Mrt. Pasal dorang ingatkan pregnant. HAHAHAHHAHAHA "

Sikit hari pon kena masuk class jaga bdk pri 1 jap. Then one boy raised his hand, stood up, and walked over to me. I bent down and he covered his hands, mcm nk bisik sumthing ah. So i gave him my ear larh. and Know what he did? HE KISSED ME!! Tros tgk dia mcm stunned gituk eh and tell him to go back. hahaha. Then one girl randomly said, " Last saturday was Valentine's Day". Tros dia diam. Aku pon tak tau nk ckp ape pasal its not a question. wakkakaka. Then i asked what did they learnt just now. They say they learn about pocong and hantu. -_- What a topic. But it helps cuz i dunno why all of a sudden those kids wanted to go to the toilet so suddenly. Nampak sah bedek eh kalo satu class , semua nk gi toilet. So aku selambanya ckp, " Ok i can let u go to the toilet.. but there's loads of pocong and hantus in the toilet you know, even in the afternoon. " Muka dorang mcm tanak percaya.. until one boy say, " Ya my mother also say the same thing" . Tros muka satu2 mcm nak nangis. Hahahah!!!!

Good nyte all larh eh! ;)

2009-02-11T10:48:00.001-08:00

I recognise this feeling, no doubt.

I really like you.

2009-02-10T07:30:00.000-08:00

I WILL BE WATCHING as an AUDIENCE ;)

We met last saturday.
My feelings have faded. Im not surprised. And seriously, thank God it has faded.
How much i want to deny, Im not stupid you know. I know what you want. And its not what i want.
I guess that day will be the last. Maybe if we had not started anything, the friendship will still be there. Yet i can't find a reason on still being friends with you -_-

2009-02-10T06:41:00.000-08:00

Soalan Cepu Emas..

" So, when will be your big day? "

Errrk. .

Weeee...

2009-02-09T12:33:00.000-08:00

Saw this when i checked MyMobile services online.

Free 20 MMS (24 months)
Unlimited Free SMS (24 months)

WAHH GEREK PE!!!!! PLEASE SMS ME EVERYBODY!!! Tanya larh ku da mkn ke lom, tgh buat ape, da mandi ke lom etc etc ok. hehehehehe... ;)

stoppit sakkkk...

2009-02-06T00:12:00.000-08:00

2009 Goal

Nak kuruskan badan.. top on the list larh seh. Bila tgk2 balik gambar lama.. dulu nk katakan tak larh kurus sngat mcm batang galah.. tapi kirakan sedang2, no bonch...perut still kempes2.. haiyaaa..misssing.. rinddu....One more goal, to still look kental and innocent like this.. k maybe minus the kental..but still want to look innocent.. CAN?

Stopppittttttt sakkk fringe...tu larh memandai gi potong fringe sendiri..

And when my frens have been looking at MY old photos, they say what a BIG difference.. big tu with a capital 'B'..hahahaa...

2009-02-06T00:06:00.000-08:00

Seriously i dunno if your avoiding me on purpose because i did the same thing to your friend OR your hp is spoilt which i would rather think it is.

Thanks for letting me feel my own karma which i have reasons for it. Thanks a lot larh eh, MR H.

2009-02-04T08:38:00.000-08:00

I don't see a reason anymore why i should look forward to odd days of the week. -_-

Just when i thought that i've found a sense of belonging..

Sentosa Flowers

2009-02-03T09:00:00.001-08:00

Sikit hari kita gi Sentosa Flowers.. Ini BUKAN DOUBLE DATE ok.

Hey all. Im back here! Tangan gatal and started godeh2ing.. this blog really brings back memories of the poly days. Mentang2 da kerja nie, busy pulak eh(padahal hari2 online). I also dunno why, but i tend to blog all the time during the poly days. More things happened back then i guess. Boyfrens lain..scandals lain(oopsth). Sometimes pasal nk blog nyer pasal, boleh skip class nie. Poly life was indeed the best moments of my lyfe. To date, da masuk 2 tahun aku da graduate from NP. Yang laki2 batch aku yg masuk NS, mesti danak abes eh skrg.

Da graduate nie pon, makin susah nak gi balik for trainins at NP. Da lah da takd members.. kadang2 bila turun training sekali sekala, there will always be this odd feeling. Da soo jauh already from this group, 'Adiratna'. Adiratna was where i share my sorrows, grievances and joy with. Teringat dulu lepas gaduh ngan boyfren tros gi training. And duduk tak sampai 5 min jer, i burst out crying larh eh. Then after tat ketawa2 balik walaupun hati tu masih sedih larh kan. At least, they made me sidetrack from the unhappiness at that point of time. Haiz.. Sedih tu sedih ah but ape nak buat.Everybody has their moments to move on in life and i guess this is one of THE moments.

After few months of not trainin, last monday really was tough. Mcm nk pecah tu urat leher (bukan jagung leher eh, try convert it to english) larh seh singing my lungs out to the songs. But it really felt good. At least, shouting my lungs out brought me away from all the problems that's been on my mind. Seeing faces for whom i've not seen for these few months.. This hobby has really brought out my soul and my innermost character in me. Walaupun tak larh bagus sngat, but im proud over what i have achieved for the 5 years that i've been in this scene and i really hope this passion in me will stay for as long as i live. Achieving something is only a plus point but the experience that i will gain that makes me soo berkobar-kobar. Finally, after a few months of boredom, i have something to look forward to everyday other than work. YEAH!!!!!!!

2007-11-14T06:27:00.000-08:00

PROMOTE! promoting when there's still time...

will be back SOON. BUSY BANGET!!

2007-11-01T19:55:00.000-07:00

Last Friday i went for CCPE Deeparaya Celebration. Before that went to CCA Branch with my PE teacher and den he brought me to Raffles Town Country Club to have a drink. chettt da mcm date! hahah. managed to go home to have a bath 1st before going to Safra Yishun. Anyway, for that event kita performed dikir.... like what ayu aja labeled me as, " kau nie HIDUP MATI DIKIR eh. " haha.

For more pics, click HERE

jap lagik nk perform dk pat lam soon. WEE!!

2007-10-31T08:01:00.000-07:00

Last last was fabulouso. On saturday, met up with 'kita-kita' jer consisting of me, naq, dee, fana and arip. kecoh babe! macam satu bus gituk. nie semua arip nyer pasal asyik buat jokes yang tak masuk akal. tak abes2 kacau dee(mentang2 larh pakai colour sama, asyik gaduh jer mcm couple!). satu2 tak senonoh, arip with his lame jokes, dee wif her super duper short fringe, fana wif her 'almost nak terberanak bag', but naq and aku maintain cool and lawa. HAHA.

Went to illya's house, the only year tat tak sempat nak karaoke. SOOO sad. tapi takp, makanan sedap da boleh eh ehh. hehe. Finally met with Iqlimah, the junior from Fajar. erm, tapi sungguh ku tak ingat muka dia! Sudah makin jambu larh kan, nie mesti dulu dia kental2 mcm aku. oopsth~

next we proceed to Kyn's house. Halfway when the lrt passed by my place, i feel like going home k! pasir ris soo jauh!!hehe. At Kyn' house we ate soup tulang masak-ed by the father. mmg tak leh harap kyn nie, dia tau makan jer mcm aku. HAHA. but the funny thin was bila kita baru sampai. Was salam-ing dis lady which i tot was the mother until i heard kyn say to dee, "Mak bapak aku pat dlm dapur" . And aku nyer bengap gi ckp, "oh bukan yang nie eh?!" WAKAKKAKAKA.

Siang2 dia da msg suruh kita jng dtg lambat sngat in case tulang dabes. i suggested tulang yantam ada since dia pon badan tulang jer. HEHE. kekekk siot.. anyway, we had to wait for yan tam and wan two three for very long. ada dorang ckp apek sesat? susah sangat ke nk gi umah kyn tu? aku tup mata pon leh g tau! terang2 depan airport, sebelah kiri kubur, sebelah kanan laut. takkan gituk pon sesat.. =)

sO, me and fana waited for 2 ekor tu while the rest went off to dila's house 1st. thats how me and fana took 2 group photo at kyn's house. one wif the gang and another with yan-tam and wan 2 3 inside. =)

we reached dila's house late. SORRY DILA!! and den wen we went off aready, kita2 managed to minta maap bawah blok dila. si yan-tam ah nie. mentang2 dia oldest, dia suruh kita2 nie line up frm the eldest to the youngest infront of him. HAHA. kekek siot.

For more pics, click here .

anyway, i had fun last week. =)

2007-10-24T07:51:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i get to meet my Achik Spin and Indian Bo-boy.

Gosh, *loves* .

2007-10-21T19:56:00.000-07:00

Today i took the bus to NP wif all d other NP students.. and obviously soooo much younger than me. hah 1st time feel so old! Reminisce the times when its always d same old people in d bus, at the lib and the lectures. Missing school.. LOTS! Been sourcing out for new jobs.. planning to work in the arts industry. Jadi Stage Manager ke, since i've got experience. Or a pri sch dk barat instructor ke(mcm paham!hehe)Or anithing thats to do with arts. ANYTHING..ranging from wardrobe assistant ke, assistant producer ke. Yep, i noe it will be a hectic schedule, but at least it will be sumthing that i will look forward to everyday. Tak sabar lak nak tunggu Rizal abes NS cuz he once said he wants to set up a theatre group. I'll be the 1st to join! I realised i could never sit still FOREVER in an office job even if its half office work +half outdoors. Beginning to hate working in a school, NO SPECIFIC REASONS. Mayb because the people are so haaaaaaard to work with, and dun accept new changes. So very the rigid. oh gosh, definitely cant work wif that! So im waiting for 1 year to end.. hope it will pass in a breeze. And anyway, i know my family's gonna kill me dengan senapang gajah. =S

Its already raya, and guess wad.. my room is not ready!HAHA. gara2 malas nyer pasal eh. part nak paint jer, mesti ada alasan bes0k kerja larh, penat larh, kain lom cuci larh(chett step ada cuci konon), blom kasi makan anjing larh, belum berus gigi harimau larh.. and i've only paint HALF of the room! haha. macam bilik org gila lak stengah2. So far none of my frens have yet to come to my house.. 27th larh kan the ccpe family. Tu pon kalo tak kena kendarat pat aizad nyer kakak nyer wedding, kalo tak kena cancel. hmm.den 28th adiratna nyer, every year tk leh miss. mana tau ada 2nd version of jalan raya 2004 huda jatuh pat tangga lagik? a MUST SEE! oh no, i hope huda doesnt see this. =)

3rd nov is sh0w. tu pon my cuzzin getting engaged.. tak sabar lak nak tunggu dia cpt2 tunang. maklumlah family kita nie da lama da tkd org kawin/tunang. 4th nov, mcc jln raya. mmg every yr tak pernah miss. HAHA. den 8th nov 'KITA-KITA' nyer jln raya. hmm den after tt i hope no more, kalo tak pokai sakkkkk aku!!

hehe.

2007-10-18T01:27:00.000-07:00

You know, im the type of person who gets bored easily. Sometimes im quiet, but most of the time im running around. I've always tot i would be contented wif an office job, a 9-5 job, but then i tink im wrong. BORED BORED BORED!! especially when working in a school.

i need a new working environment!!FAST!!!!!!!!!!!
Hopefully Mediacorps next *prays*

2007-10-13T08:03:00.000-07:00

1st day of raya was GOOD. as usual, had loads of fooooooood and im sure i've gr0wn ten kg more n0w. w0ke up at 9.30am tu pon tanak bangun! HEHE. anyway, i tink it feels like i w0ke up at 8am because sms-es came non-stop k!! tak sayang sms tol, semua sms hari rayaaa. and den suddenly one of d sms was fr0m an unknown no. ah kan. so i sms back and ask who is that. and the person said, " shah ahh..". Sesungguhnya aku tak tau k shah mana! Tot it was shahRUL, but den no. lain pe.. and den i asked shah mana eh. the person said, 'shah pasir ris.. nie tina kan? ' i was like SAPA SAK DIA NIE. anyway, i din wan to hurt his feelins and let him noe that i still dunno who he is, so i msg back step kenal dia, " oh shah..!! h0w are u? dabes skola ke lom?"

teros dia msg balik.. " eh tina da buang tebiat eh.. last time same course as u wad i quit sch aready!"

ALAMAK!! AHHAHA. BARU AKU INGAT LARH SHAH MANA. lol. shah oh shah.. hehe.

anyway, dis is my 1st year giving out duit raya. rasa lain lak tak pernah kasi duit. and i feel sad because AKU TAK DAPAT DUIT RAYA PON!! SATU SEN PON TAK DAPAT K!MAK BAPAK PON TAK KASIK!!

hahaha. sori sori. lepaskan geram + nafsu jap. LOL.

oh well, tml another day agn.
chiao chin ch0w!

2007-10-11T09:21:00.000-07:00

yesss ahh 24 hrs more too rayya! puasa seems to fly by like a breeze isnt it? i dun feel the tiredness of puasa..(puasa ke tk sak,HAHA). well, everythins ready..except the shoes!!takkan nak pakai capal eh. hMM. thast y after work tml(which is at 11am,whoopeee!), will be meeting mama at geylang cuz she as0 wan to buy baju. I hope ada sikit org ahhh (fat hope!) . mana tau dorang masih kerja ke, masih ngah cat umah kee, masih anyam ketupat ke..masih mengendap orang sebelah mandi ke..OOPSTH.

My Ramadhan dis year boleh tahan kec0h gak.. macam last year.. but nonetheless, i still miss last year. =)

Buka-ed with my CCPE family just n0w.. 1st 'training' larh katakan f0r 0ur sh0w..will be performing dk at the company's deeparaya.. best gak buat ragam with ppl tat u have never d0ne wif.. ragam pon styl0 mylo..thnks to abg K kita ehh.HEHE.

Oh well, i guess the nxt entry g0nna be very very very long later. soo...
Tina di sini ingin mengucapkan ribuan ampun dan maaf seandainya ada terkasar bahasa, tercium, terogol, tergesek bahu, terjeling, terjilat, tersenyum, tergigit, terbau ketiak masam, terpukul, terpijak, terngendap dan lain-lain jenayah yang telah tina lakukan sewaktu dengannya.. =)

One year has passed.
Yet the feelings..are still so fresh.
The memories from last raya are still fresh in the mind.
I tried my very best to forget about you, and i thought i did when i finally didn't think of you.
Yet reality strikes when we had to meet that day. I simply cant wipe out your face from the mind after tat.
Reminiscing the happy moments, the rides back home, the long walks, the outings, the frens, that overnight, the smile, the sms-es, the kisses, the holding hands, the gazing of eyes, the family, the love, the protection, and EVERYTHING else.
And when i thought i really had forgotten about you,
i realised that i had been in self denial all this while. a year..?
In fact, you have never left my mind.
even thou i know, i had made the right decision at that point of time.

And now, everything's changed.
YOU have changed. I have changed.
We each have our own lives..
But sometimes, i really wish again for YOU. ='(

2007-10-06T10:32:00.002-07:00

ahh yesh! just g0t back fr0m geylang, frm the gelanggang sh0w at perkampungan. kekek giler!! somemore dpt cuci mata, u noe i noe fana. HEHE. went last min, actually was supposed to go geylang to mit yantam..last2 member busy banget so g0t to g0 wit family.den ajak fariza, she aso last min cant g0 ..dgr2 ada benda meletup pat umah dia..kesian. so met fana up @ SP cuz she went for iftar..aku sampai jer makanan dabes k! sungguh lapar aku. anyway, went geylang after that to watch dikir kita and scdf. hehe.. when i reached home, den found out parents still at geylang!!heh.

anyway, adiratna iftar was a blast of cuz as usual wit the peepz.. camped in sch overnite f0r mcc iftar.. slept wif fariza and naq oni..but it was a blast!!but i still cannot accept the fact punya nah selengeh tapi tk bacin nyer aku.. i brought my dad's baju dalam instead of my shirt k!!!!!tgh fikiran balik nak pakai ape ehh nasib baik naq bring xtra shirt!!muackz!!love u!!heheheh.. anyway tiga dara pegi alazhar mlm2 midnite to eat.. had soo much luffters... =)

more pics @ http://baitina.multiply.com .

the other day went to 'pasar' near my house wif bee for shopping. Bought a wallet which really look like Guess, the imitation larh got the 'G's and everythin. so bought it.. onli to realise at a small corner of the wallet, there was the brand. bukan imitation Guess pon eh. the brand name is GOOSI!!!!! HAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!! tu larh akibatnya beli benda tak check brand-set ke tk.HEH.

2007-10-02T10:30:00.000-07:00

2 days ago i began calling the schools to remind them of the taklimat date. Ada larh aku kol satu hamba Allah nie(sumpah aku tk tau dari skola mana pasal dila tak bagi nama skola) at 12 plus PM.

AKU: eloz, boleh saya bercakap dgn ****?
DIA: hmmm. hmmm. ahh yer saya(suara steamm gilerr babi nyer)
AKU: ahh..nama saya tina..wakil dari Ngee Ann Poly..(bursts out laughing)

abeh suara mcm steam giler babi nyer..case mcm baru bgn tido..nasib baik puasa..cobaan tol buat aku. da kol 12 lebih takkan masih tido eh! abeh aku ketawa is case tk leh stop luffin pasal aku try to control but sesungguhnya, tk kesampaian.

DIA: (laughs) Awk, kenapa awk ketawa?
AKU: (case tak leh tahan eh) Awk nie,baru bgn tido ke??? Suara mcm org bgn tido jee haha
DIA: Takde larh saya baru nak kuar umah nie..
AKU: (still trying to control)..okok just want to inform u..*giggles*
DIA: kk saya tak berbuaL, awak ckp!!muahaha.
AKU: just want to inform u that..*giggles giggles laugh laugh uncontrollably*
AKU: alamak, tak leh tahan ahh. awak, saya kol awak later!

aku lom sempat ketawa abes, member da kol balik larh kan. actually the rests i called also mcm baru bgn tido. but ntah mamat nie mcm xtra kelakar lak eh. hmm..

2007-09-29T10:17:00.001-07:00

oh adik riyahku, i'll do the quiz some other time k..cuz i got updating to do! =)

Hmm life's been a roller coaster ride so far.. kecoh giler..but nonetheless, i managed to survive the ordeals.. Last fri me and fana met amad g0ng and bijan up at geylangg. Amad g0ng yang badan macam wwe/wwf dulu, skrg da slim k!! Da hensem lak eh. OOPSTH. bijan left immediately after buka as he had sumthin on but came back to meet us at 10 plus. Met shahrul and his grp of frens too..one of them is my sec sch junior, dilah lah. And found out other 2 guys are my kindergarden frens larh kan.SMALL SINGAPORE INDEED! Let me show show some pics..HEHE.

Ok lets us all laugh. HAHAHHA HAHAHAH HAHAHAH! muka shockeddd gilerr sak!!!!HEHE.

scandals.

FAJARIANS!!

ah yerr. dulu tak suka amek gambar si mamat nie. part da hensem da berg mati2 nak amek gambar. HMMPH!MENYAMPAH!

Monday went buka puasa with poly mates, nisha, isha, mas, amel and me. Updating each other of our lifes..

k larh. will update abt my fri and sat tml...or soon. tata!yeah besok nk cat BILIK!! =)

2007-09-25T09:05:00.000-07:00

Im in a very super duper blogging mood rite now..so here g0es!

1. (the person who tagged you is)

- kyn-kong

2. (your relationship him/her is)

- ahhh. cucu cicit cum dimple taring cum one of ma goody frens.

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her)

-pretty(jng kembangs bawah k OOPSTH), photogenic, mata lawa, LOUD, blur like me!

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you)

- sanggup give a listening ear to probs tk kira ngan matair ke bapuk ke mak bapak ke datuk ke.

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you)

- hmmmmm. tak tau leh

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will)

- alamak MATI ah. on the spot k tumbuh bawah demi dia! HEHE.

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improved on will be)

- erm. bila da IF tu baru ckp eh.

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy,you will)

- hmm rasa2 tak akan ahh. nak gaduh pasal ape eh? i like big big, she like..erm small2 sepet2 eyes man kot??hehe

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be)

-erm pasal tak dapat jadi lovers??

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is)

- desirable ehh. to go out wif her! =)

11. (your overall impression of him/her is)

- good listening ear(besar agaknya), good fren, esay to talk to

12. (how you think people around you will feel about you)

- CUTE!!wakakka. erm, blur?? i noe eh.

13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is)

-'tak kisah nyer orang' . i usually dun masuk campur in ppl's problems unless they confide in me.

14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is)

- blur,street idiot, gullible, naive.

15. (the most ideal person you want to be is)

-to be to almost perfect.

16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them)

- i love you all!! banyakkan larh care and like ehh. belikan larh present ke, kiss ke hug ke..

17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)

1. Kekasih gelapku(HAHA!!)

2. lenny

3. hizamy

4. hakim Tappered

5. kadir

6. Lala

7. sulas

8. illya biniku

9. hakim B

10. Nura

(Who is no.6 having relationship with?)

- I tink should be no one..but so pretty. mesti many scandals and sandals! =)

(Is no.9 a male/female)

- male! should be!

(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)

- ohh obviously no . nanti nak kawin kena gi luar negeri. =~

(When was the last time u had chat with no.3?)

- mcc outing!!omg so looong ago!

(What kind of music does no.8 like?)

- DANGDUTS and LAGU JIWANG! dia gelek best best.

(Does no.1 has any siblings?)

- hehe. have. 1 oni like me.

(Will you woo no.3)

- Don't need to woo, member tinggal depan rumahku jer..oopsthhh.

(How about no.7)

- cannot..later kena hantam dgn kekasih rambutbesarnyer..~

(Is no.4 single?)

- should be!! pat dalam kandang.. unless matair ngan bapuk? hur hur.

(What's the surname of no.5?)

- surname tu nama bapak eh?tak tau seh..

(What's the hobby of no.4?)

- one of it that i noe, he likes to sleep on my lap!

(Do no.5 and 9 get along?)

- oh no they dunno each other. but kalo nak kenal2, can tell me lor..

(Where is no.2 studying at?)

- nafa rite rite rite!! =)

(Say something casual about no.1)

- knew him thru a fren..

(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?)

- memang da ada LUP pon..bini oi..

(Where does no.9 live?)

- alamak. where eh...

(What color does no.4 like?)

- ini aku tak tauu.

(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)

- no..i hope so not!!!

(Does no.7 like no.2?)

- they dunno each other.

(How did you get to know no.2)

- went for the same interview and training at kfc/pizzahut call centre. found out she's pri sch junior.. den interviewd for delifrance..and found out she's frens with fattanah!! hehe.miss her!!

(Does no.1 have any pets?)

- hmm. cicak consider tak eh?

(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)

- yes of cuz.. thats y her bf like her? HEHE.

alrite,i shall pick six people to do this.

ok, i shall choose from above. LOL. i add 4 more..all 10 pls. HEHE.

1. Kekasih gelapku(HAHA!!)

2. lenny

3. hizamy

4. hakim Tappered

5. kadir

6. Lala

7. sulas

8. illya biniku

9. hakim B

10. Nura
a
done! hope ur happy, kyn k0ng!

2007-09-22T08:38:00.000-07:00

Today i don't have the mood at all. I once felt like blogging about what's currently happening.. but then i still cant find the right words to say. I really hope the words do come fast.. because im trying desperately to stay SANE.

So many cobaans, dugaans this Ramadhan. And then i always tell myself, this will be just a stupid phase that im going thru. it will be better and it will go away sooner than i expect it to be..right? i hope so.

As much as i wanted to love and to be loved, but how come the ones that came are ____ ?

It still doesnt help that im still thinking of ********.

Somebody, knock my head. please

2007-09-18T06:59:00.001-07:00

Sometimes i wonder why life seems to be so cruel. Yes, thins may not always be perfect, you may never get wat u want, and thins doesnt necessarily will go the way you want it to be. Yes i know everything happens for a reason..but what reason is there is to get entangled with somebody YOUNGER than you?

im in triple shittttttttttttttt.

2007-09-14T09:37:00.001-07:00

its the fri again.. hah. mcm danak berhabuk larh ini blog..tutup sua..YEAH!!hehe. i am hungry..and its onli 12.49 am. bila nak sahur nie!!

anyway my week made mi very pokai..i tink the most pokai sepokai2 nyer.Tues went _____ with fana,kyn,ama, yan-tam, wan two three, aizad drebar and ayu gf. before that, bought kain raya at tekka with yan-tam. hmm, this sentence sounds misleading. i meant, MY baju raya. heh. and colours are ____ & _____ !! i lioke so much! Anyway after that wen we met the others, first time i _____ . And after that, jantung macam nak putus tau tau! oh well, kata 1st time. 1st time is always the MOST MEMORABLE. hehe.

wednesday, went triple(2 ppl is couple, 3 ppl is triple rite?) date with yan-tam and wan two three. watched 1408!!SERAM!! so much suspense. but as usual, i covered face with the tudung. HEHE.

for more pics, go here

Today , was very last min . I was forced to go for a buka puasa. HAHAH. just joking.. buka-ed with yan-tam, wan two three, aja, ayu, aji, nana, azmi, yathy, faris, ain, aizad & ayu. Its been a long time since i last saw them.. berbulan noh! so the hati was a bit degap degup, i aso dunno y. but den turns out allright, feels like the old days. CHETT. so the 1st thin ayu said when she saw me was aja said i've grown tembam. OH OK.. not the 1st person to say that obviously. and then, bowling @ ecp. k..lain2 semua terror2 belakaa. tapi paling tak leh angkat was when i found out my name on the screen was TB. penyakit sungguh ehhhh. we were wondering k what does that B stands for until i asked ayu gf to ask matair kesayangan dia wad does TB means because he was the one who type the names. TINA BELO eh kena! and they change and change d names..but i onli remembered was AG(Aja Gigi) .mentang2 ada gigi palsu. WAKAKKAKA. This aizad tak abes2 nk kacau org. I tink we started kacau-ing each other was when i started caling him Aizad Drebar. tros member tk leh accept ehhhhhh. da larh tersengeh macam monyet!! told yan-tam i felt like tembaking him with senapang gajah. dalam hati, kalo takd pon, hidung gajah pon jadi ah!!! haiz, takp tina..sabar bulan puasa nie.

so the rest went other places and yan-tam sent me to geylang serai and he met his mum and i went home. And i walked past sumbody whom i dun wan to see anymore at all! so sampai sekarang hati masih berdegap-degup lagik. Jengs..

And here i want to wish yan-tam all the best in his ns life. selamat berjuang untuk negara!! sori this post took so long..haha. cuz i promised him will write about him before he go ns tapi mcm tk kesempatan larh kan.

So here goes,..

* The one who calls me Tun Teja

*The one who says my dad looks like Jin Samsuddin(thnks ehh)

* My fashion consultant (HAHA)

*The one who calls my mama, 'mama' too

*The one who introduced BATAM to me!

erm da larh tu jer larh..malas nk type bnyk2 oopsthhhhhhh.

FAREWELL YAN-TAM!! SEE YOU ON _______ !! (=

2007-09-07T01:35:00.000-07:00

how time flies. its friday evening aready! school holidays don't seem to be holidays at all. today was a lazy day. decided to work very hard in the morning, and slack in the afternoon leaving my work all to monday. friday babe!! hehe. last sun went karaoke-ing with dee, illya and ellin. huda was there but she din joined us at the last min.anyway, BEST AHH SAKKK KARAOKE! now im addicted to singing. Thats why tues i went karaoke-ing again with the ccpe family eh! at Cashbox.soooo much cheaper. but ccpe nyer kecoh giler, da mcm pat disco. Nasib baik tak bukak tudung buat tube eh.. MATI ah. HAHA. Wednesday gerek..met up fariza and we went to mcc outing. Actually was very tired that day my eyes felt like 8309382030 years tak tido. But den da janji nyer pasal eh..hehe. And fun night i had! there was huda, me, fariza, kyn, ama and fana. and we played my game!!ahha. its the make up a story with one word game. thema was TANGGA, courtesy of HUDA. =) i tink klakar was gigi palsu kyn terburai pat umah huda ..and A**** was caught berasmara pat umah huda pon!!HAHA. mati ah. anyway, toking about gigi palsu, that nite itself my dad was washing his gigi palsu(he took out from his mouth and wash it) and my hand accidentally terkena the gigi. seriously, i dunno wad went thru my mind..i go and smell the spot at my hand that the gigi palsu terkena k!!! so my dad was laughing his head off why i go and smell like perfume wangi instead of washing the hand. and so, my whole family get to noe tooooo. HAHAHAHAHA. giler aku. went home with fariza and hizamy from ecp, and we tok a lot about.. jeng jeng jeng =p

Yesterday friday evening..went HOMEMADE 2007!!!! bef0re that met up with fana and then we went to yan-tam's auntie shop @ golden landmark to meet him. kesian seh member.. favourite word -> tak terurus!!HAHA..bought a cardigan, and i wore it immediately eh..fana u noe i noe. heh. went to national museum and since we were early and the show is at the garden, we walked around in the museum first. and so many nice gadgets larh kan! we were so busy snapping pictures, and having fun when suddenli fana pointed to a sign. rupanya cameras not allowed eh! waduh, terus simpan k macam penagih dadah nak simpan dadah. AHHA. illya soon came and we decided to go to 7-11 to buy food 1st before sitting d0wn. so i bought maggi larh. mati2 i tot its tomyam, because i din see wad flavour was it onli that the colour is red. so as usual, i pour the seasoning everything and hot water larh. and when i ate it, i was thinking asal eh macam tak rasa tom yam abeh macam tk rasa pon kuah dia, like the mee is so bland.. rupa-rupanya, tu MEE MAGGI EH!! air kena buang!AHAHHA. nasib baik lapar eh, kalo tak consperm buang tu maggi. heh. anyway, best with the bands playing. but sumtimes bila da duduk lama tu mcm boring lak pasal da duk lama. but we were waiting for WICKED AURA actually!!!hehe. too bad din watch finish..cuz taklimat khatu today.

They always say bapak aku muka mcm Jin Samsuddin. nah amek ko muka bapak aku time muda2!HAHA.

bukan susah k nak amek gambar jump jump. i took 2 unsuccessful tries before getting it right eh.!1st 2 pictures, muka aku mana!hehe

more pics @ http://baitina.multiply.com/ =)

todays briefing for khatu was OK larh. dun wish to comment much, i just wish for the best. best part, ME wore fajar sec house shirt, pasal tk dpt carik shirt putih lain pat umah eh! and met fajar's junior aso at the briefing. HEHE. ate at mac kap after that with dee, amaliana, yantie, WAHID, hafiz L, hafiz S, and ama. KEKEK sungguh! we toked abt , GHOSTS. sampai aku balik dengar ayat qursi and orang sampai antar lift eh! tomoro is another outing again. cannot wait. weeee!

2007-09-01T10:10:00.000-07:00

You know, sometimes i feel as if im getting on with life so fast . As days goes by, i feel im having senile dementia at this very young age of 21. I tink the whole school alreadys knows im blur and very forgetful. I've not used the organizer for the time being.. pasal malas nyer pasal larh kan! sumtimes, there's so much thins to do, u dun even feel like writing reminders and thins down. Adding in to the office politics, and i repeat OFFICE, Its not even the whole school yet, but just the general office itself. Im lucky im surviving because of the temp clerk who just came and is my age too. Because ever since she came, the office is so much livelier cuz i finally found someone to relate to. Usually we spent the day kutuking and laughing at the teachers.. because some of the teachers are sooooooo macam memang muka kalau tak dikutuk, konfem tak sah nyer. There's one teacher whom ketiak dia masam nak mampus. Kalahkan AKB(Adiratna's Ketiak Basah) Club eh. Usually when he walks past or talk to us, we hold our breath as hard as we can. Da macam swimming eh! Its like is he wearing a perfume that smells like ketiak or wad? And there's this one teacher whose always in her own world sometimes i dun even noe wad she's toking. i cant imagine how her students understand her words when we adults cant even understand. Then our OM(Operations Manager) is so short, and he wears shoes that look like boots k. And there's one more whereby when she talks, we feel like want to pengsan cuz she has bad breath..and the list goes on and on. I think the kutukings thats been keeping me going.. HAHAHAHA!!! i wish this friend would go apply as permanent staff.. and then we plan to quit after one year and apply for NIE together-gether. So means i still have 1 year to decide whether i want to be a teacher, or NOT. Seriously eh, if u ask me wad type of job do i like, i don't think i can answer your question, because i dun even noe! At first i tot, being a CCPE seems to be fun.. and then as months goes by, best tu memang larh best because theres so many challenges in the job, but i feel so tired larh kan.. and then i tot of admin, but i knew i get bored easily doing admin job all the time. To start a business.. i guess i dun have that calibre to start one. unless mayb bukak gerai pat primary sch kot. oopsthhhh. hehe. its hard you see when you dun even noe what u wan in life. sometimes, i tend to wonder what will i become 10 yrs down the road. Would i be a successful career woman or a housewife taking care of 5 kids at home. would i even HAVE a boyfriend or GET MARRIED in the first place. How to take care of a household when i cant even take care of myself. How to get a boyfriend when all they guys yang belen2 nowadays ada something wrong with them. I dunno y He lets us meet all the wrong ones before letting us meet the perfect one. Because after meeting the wrong ones, even if the supposedly right one comes along, i dun tink i would be able to trust him that easily. See larh the irony of this. And so, i dunno y i keep crossing paths with the wrong ones. And i always question myself, "Y SAKKK...Y THESE KIND OF PEOPLE " or " Y SAK.. Y HIM OF ALL PEOPLE". And there's this one day, i tot finally larh kan i found somebody whom i can click with. Dream guy larh katakan..got car, MY TASTE, same interests, everything larh kan.. and then it turns out dia pon ada problem k! Yep yep, i know people aren't perfect, im not a perfectionist too but when you noe that someone has a problem, nak bual ngan dia pon macam was-was.

Haiz. I dunno, i think there's lots of issues which i have to tink abt but i seem to be running from them. Sometimes i question the purpose of life(nono babe, aku tak mintak nak mati k). But somehow i've not found my purpose of living. Like you see in the movies, quotes like.." i live because of you.." and bla bla bla. Izzit frens? family? passion-dikir, drama? him? these are all going around and around in the head. I guess this must be the pre-effects of turning 21. Kan people always sae, 21 is the turning point in your life.. turning larh sangat. i feel like i've just gone thru a major makeover k. Compare me and now, macam langit and bumi if some of the frens could still remember the very kental hairstyle. That hairstyle can never be traded with anithin in the world k. HEHE. oh well, enough about life. lets talk abt khatu. OMG! i decided to go ahead advertising online since eveybody is calling dila cuz her's the first no. Like common sense larh kan. And she has informed the media as well. So what i did, i tink i've gone to like 4383834 ppl's , strangers frenster whom shd be budak dikir larh kan and send khatu bulletin to them. And when i view them, they viewed me back and after that, i dunno Y they add me as well. And then, gituk takpe, they ask questions which are not related to khatu nyer hidup ataupun mati. ahh yes, i tink i sucks at PR. my malay sucks, im shy(oopsth), i dun tok much, i tink ppl will yawn when i tok,so i tink i suck too.. haha. life's always like that i guess. you dun always get wad u wan.

On wednesday, went to met lutfi after work, since member also study part time near my school. And i got "Dikir Kita" for free!!!! Very excited giler bab k.

Friday had Teacher's Day Dinner at Forct Canning. The food sucks..and to show that it really sucks, i actually went down at clementi to vomit first before continuing the journey home k.

the kutuking partnerrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!! HEHE.

anyway it went great larh.. had loads of laughs and finally i saw the teacher's real colours. they really let down their hair and enjoyed themselves.

lyfe's a drag..

2007-08-28T02:27:00.000-07:00

i feel like going to a drum workshop organised by Wicked Aura Batucada. anybody interested? hehe.

2007-08-27T10:17:00.000-07:00

2 nights ago, when i was resting at the fever faculty while waiting for 3 packets of drips to finish being inserted into the body, my life's of 20 years seem to flash by my eyes. chett, berbual macam nak mati lak eh. oopsth. anyway, tak leh tido nyer pasal larh because the nurse that was on duty kept slamming and banging the doors. minahh kampong dusun k. somehow, the mind went thru happy and sad moments, choices that i made, the right choices i made, and the choices that eventually made me regret.

Sometimes i wonder whom do i resemble most, the mum or the dad. Yan and Aizad said i look exactly like my dad. At the same time, they also sae he look like Jin Samsuddin. So do i also look like Jin Samsuddin or wad?HAHA. Character wise, blur part i definitely take on my dad's side. Can almost see the similarities. Yan also said i definitely CANNOT take any driving license. Dia terus bangkang habes eh. and now i noe y. my dad too tried to take driving license time 80-an but wad he got was multiple failures. HEH. but the good thing abt my dad is, he's hardworking.. hmm. i dun feel myself hardworking at all. Mayb part nie i take on my mum's side, not saying dia pemalas but sikit2 jer sakit. so hardworking + weak = PEMALAS? HEHE.

My whole life i was slow. My mum had to send me to the doc when i was in Kindergarten cuz instead of listening to the teacher in the class, i seem to be in my own world looking out at the windows etc. Miraculously, my sch results were fabulous. sampai, i was in the higher mother tongue class eh. skrg, melayu sendiri haprak sampai ada org komen. HAHA. hmm, sometimes i also dunno how to describe myself.Even till now, i feel like building a world of my own, so that i wun have unnecessary people intruding on my life.

Anyway, while lying down in that cold room, i was reminded of very bad memories. actually, not that bad, but memories which could be considered as bad cuz the people whom were in the memories.. erm. mcm tak menjadi? paham? aku sendiri tak paham. DAMN IT I KNOW MY MALAY IS GOOD. HAHA. and there i was thinking abt life and death and wad would i do if i were given a chance to meet up with each and every one of them. I guess i would sae sorry.. a sincere sorry and thanks for the memories. =) Its a miracle ppl come and go rite? one min u were best frens with tipah, and the next min, tipah is frens with minah and it so happens minah doesnt like muna. so tipah and muna cannot be frens because tipah's frenship is more stronger with minah. hmmm hmmm. Im sad because each and everyone of these frens(not tipah, minah or muna k) has left a considerable amount of footsteps in my life.

oh well, got to face that cold reality that frens come and go and nobody could do anithing about it.

Thanks to memories, im missing a certain somebody..

*&$#(*#)()($#) to memories!

2007-08-26T19:50:00.000-07:00

EDITED. =)

to tags...

to amz: aiya mummy attached, nanti bila da kawin larh den u will noe okie!hehehe..dun worry i miss u too. yep doing khatu... penat u~..and pls k, dun main2 wif my tagboard.. nanti i 'hang' u baru tau ! =)

to Zamry: haha. Sori eh Sun tk join lak......~ =x

to Fadh!rna: yep will linked u up in awhile too..muackz!

to yanty: *sobz* of all ppl..he had to get a ********** ... nvm.. i shall find better one.. =(

Friday night out

My friday night was best.. even thou i was down with diarrhoea and fever. fariza was late(like usual larh eh!HEHE) so turns out while walking to bugis V i saw hizamy and azrai'e at the traffic light. so was their body guard 1st larh kan while waiting for fariza to reach.. mak ai jalan ngan dorang..sesungguhnya so many comments k! so dirty minded peepz! HAHA. anyway, its been very long since i last saw them.. almost to 1 mth? haiyo! fariza came after that,said our byes and started our shopping. Met yaty, shahrul and fana after that and we lepak at that egyption restaurant and den went shopping again with fana and fariza. but that day was so tiring aready larh kan.. i looked like a zombie. heh.

My Saturday

Wah kayaking best larh! haha. klakar seram pon ada. passed swimming test and Capsized drill. but i dunno how to swim larh kan..even thou this is with life vest.

Me: Kadir kadir! am i moving forward or not?!

Kadir: yes yes u are! keep on swimming!

Ada larh buat aku happy jap ingat aku betul2 larh swim sendiri. terus i found out that he was PULLING me all the while eh!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAH.

but the capsized drill buat seram nk try again. i feel like i've suck in 10 gallons of salt water k!

ended the day with dinner at sakura. and den weird eh, while kayaking, my diarrhoea din came. but when it was over, sakit lak. cuz i felt so terrible while on the way back. kalo balik cpt takp gak. at desperate times like this, bus nyer aircon not working lak and all the passengers had to wait for the nxt bus. mcm setan tol!

k sampai sini jer larh. hehe. i have 3 days mc so im enjoying my life watching movies at home. HEHE.

loving all my frens who care =)

2007-08-22T06:10:00.001-07:00

im not supposed to be home early today cuz i have yoga after work at 6.30pm. But sesungguhnya i finished work late at 6pm eh! last min work to be done. last2 malas nk gi pon tu yoga. AHAH. and so, i've been missin loads groups of people. jeng jeng jeng...!

For this, im missing the very blonde hair!muahahh

k da!

2007-08-20T07:08:00.001-07:00

Today i went to work as per normal. And i was in a good mood cuz i know i dun have anithing to do at the moment, unless they gave me work to do. And then when i was in the bus happily to work.. I REALISED THAT IM SUPPOSED TO REACH WORK EARLY TODAY!!

omg omg k!terus sms colleague and told her i totally forgot. and kekek k..cuz we are supposed to wear same colour today.. and part baju aku ingat, part kena dtg cpt, tk ingat k. ahhaha.And den the day started off quite bad cuz i asked if there's any work to be done, oh well i asked cuz im honest(chett chett!!). And then, one whole stack of work k! mati ah.. and im bringin my work home now too. tau tk mintak kerja!hahahaa. buat susah org jer.wakakka.

And den u noe in my office there's one office clerk who has health probs. she's always on dialysis in the sch every day..and she's always on mc. and today she came to work..but arnd 9 plus she told the manager that she feel like fainting. so we called the husband to come and fetch her(btw, the husband looked like her SON k. HEHE). The husband told us to call the ambulance as judgin from experience, its not safe for him to drive her to hosp as he wun noe wad to do in the car if thrs emergency arises. So we called the ambulance and she was still ok.. until i began to heard choking noises mcm tgh fits gitukk. Wah my VP almost fly out of his room (to use the word fly for an 60yrs old man, is so called INCREDIBLE k) and everybody went rushing to that clerk. As for me, i dun even dare to look! The rest were already arguing on what to do cuz they dun even noe wad to do. The paramedics came(HENSEM BANGET) and took her away and later on the manager say she herself scared thats y she back off cuz the woman mcm nak nazak gituk. My colleague had to accompany her to the hospital and i told her she can be part time paramedic cuz everytime the ambulance come to our sch, dia jer yg kena ikut gi hosp. AHHA!!

k im off to do my work. i cant wait for SAT AND SUN. =) meeting the love. HEHE.

2007-08-19T10:07:00.000-07:00

Messages like...

"... i just dun wanna lose you.."
"... i treasure what we have.."
"...appreciating the times we have.."
"... hati masih terguris..."

..and many more and more.. countless.. luckily it wasnt EVERYTHING..

haiz. should learn to get my priorities straight. stop thinking of it , TINA!!

2007-08-13T07:52:00.000-07:00

My weekends was LOVING IT! sat, went to taman warisan with the babes and watched some of our frens performed. sungguh panas tak terhingga macam sauna.Ended the day with lepaking at esplanade. Sun, went to nura's bday party. Thema GREEN! i sungguh lioke hehe. met Talib over there. hah with the ccpes, everythin is a small world. turns out nura and him are ex TP classmates. heh~

Rasyid sent mi and fauziah to Ang Mo Kio after that. But kekek k.. In the car we passed by this one mrt station and i said..

Me: *looks outside excitedly* Eh! nie mrt station mcm familiar seh!mcm pernah nampakk gituk. Yishun kan!
Fauziah: NOO TINA THIS IS ANG MO KIO!!! WE ARE STOPPING HERE LARH!!

oopsth. =)

More pics @ http://baitina.multiply.com =)

2007-08-11T11:24:00.000-07:00

*sings*

"oh..begini rasanya..tak deng deng tak deng deng.."

This relief and excitement in the heart.

YESSAA.

No more, no more!

no more sweetie, no more baby, no more cute cheeks, no more calls, no more sms-es.

ahh yes, freedom at last! =)

MERDEKA!!!!!

*the heart jumps for joy..*

2007-08-09T19:59:00.000-07:00

YES its a quiet day in school today because its a school holidaaaaaaaaae.YESSAAAA. doing some updating before im goin to continue with my work. ah yesh, sch holidays are not the days u can slack but i tink they are the days u shd finish up ur unfinished work!

I tink this was the worst week that i've gone thru. On wednesday, was looking forward to an exciting day since i've been given the post of first-aider for the Lower Primary Games Day. Exciting larh sungguh! Was supposed to reach work at 8am but 7.45am da sampai. The pupils and teachers were having the national day briefing and everything. And was just in the office for 5 mins..and then suddenly there were teachers and rushing into the office and one of them was carryin a girl. And the girl's eye was bleeding profusely! aku tgk jer pon mcm nk pengsan k. They straight went to the sick bay. So i followed too larh since first-aider for the day ma. chett chett. Because its a serious injury, they told me to call the ambulance. abeh kan, aku tak pernah larh call ambulance!!!! abeh worst thing, aku tk ingat pon no. ambulance ape. abeh kalo tanya dorang, mcm klakar + kental + selengeh, no. ambulance pon tk tau. so aku guess larh kan shd b 995. Hati berdegap degup k bila nak kol... i was so nervous till when the person picked up the fone, i said, " NIE AMBULANCE EH?!!" . orang tu ketawakan k !and said yah yah ambulance. thnks eh org ngah nervous + sexcited dia leh ketawakan lak.

So the principal wanted either me or my colleague (her name is Ruzana, my age but she's very small size) to follow along with the ambulance, but then my OM said ," i tink we shd let the younger one go and the older one stay.In case of any emergencies here. " mcm nk ckp, "WEI THANKS EH KITA SAMA UMUR K!! "ape,mentang2 aku gemuk and tinggi sikit, makna aku tua ah nie. ahhahahaha. It was kind of embarassing to walk arnd the sch on that day..especially when the whole sch is wearin red and white, and you are wearing green!!

Teacher: Tina, why are u wearin green!
Me: (struggles for an answer) erm..because.. im not celebrating national day tomoro..im goin batam..batam flag is green corour!

muahahaha.

Batam was GREAT. If onli i had more time to buy 84724820 more items....

2007-08-08T05:08:00.000-07:00

So much thins have been happening as so that i feel its so hard to breathe. Last sunday i decided to skip the colleague's dotter wedding and pay my grandfather a visit with the family. Memandangkan its been a long time since i last visited him . And the only grandfather that i have left, i guess i should also treasure this one and only before its too late. As usual he made his old jokes, sumtimes i dun even understand wad he was saying cuz gigi dia da bogeh . but aku ketawakan jer eh..hehe. And then on monday afternoon, i received a call from father telling me to go home straight after work cuz my grandfather's been admitted to the hospital. dalam hati, aikz baru smlm aku tgk ok abeh niari ada sumthin wrong! And at that point of time, i tell myself i am so fortunate i chose not to go to the wedding and i get to see the grandfather the day before because i was contemplating on what to tell the colleague if i see her at work. Macam tk baik kan kalo skip wedding..

That monday night was so tense.. we dunno what will happen. And now its wednesday and we still DUNNO what will happen. Tears are flowing down as im typing this and i know its god's will if one has to leave us.

But seriously, im not prepared for all this AT ALL. its the period of time where im so overloaded with work and stuffs and i wonder if i will suffer a major breakdown like the one i suffered during period to Salammalas II.

Im so afraid. i hope for a miracle.

2007-08-05T05:59:00.000-07:00

Been busy promoting Khatu..

Haiz its the end of the weekends and in a few hours time, work work work. sungguh not looking forward. But next week will be a fast one thou, so many sch holidays!YES, dun need to see the students for erm, 2 or 3 days. SYUKUR ALHAMDULLILAH.. on wed, a ger came in to the office with her hands full with blood. Dalam hatiku, aikz dia gi bunuh rabbit ke binatang2 yang sewaktu dengannya ke pat science lab. And then, it seems that her fren CUT her hand with a scissors. And the cut is so deep larh kan. Bdk tu pon satu. ingat tangan tu kertas kape. Dulu time pri sch aku kena accident tu pon pasal my head got knocked with a soccer ball eh. terus pengsan siot. wkkakaka. haiz..matiii ah..bdk2 pri sch skrg are so violent nowadays sometimes aku nak gi skola pon seram. mana tau ada jer one dae bdk2 tu gantung kepala babi pat desk aku. WAKKAKAKA... Just the other day, this teacher showed me something which her Pri 2 students are passing around the class. GAMBAR POCONG eh...u noe, the gambar pocong taken from citer Pocong 2 that pocong larh. PRI 2 jer k! PRI 2 dulu aku masih ngah minum botol susu sak..haha. the pic is making some of her students so scared to go inside the class cuz they claims that there are ghosts in the class. And now im blaming that teacher for showing me cuz bila kau tutup mata jer, terbayang gambar pocong tu..thanks larh sangat.

Went to NYP production on fri. Yesh it was very sad..but i din cry i dunno why. But yg malacindians semua meraung mcm hilang kucing gituk. Si bdk sebelah aku nie, dia nangis pat baju sleeve aku non-stop. Nasib baik aku tak perah tu sleeve, kalo perah agaknya leh fill up satu baldi ehh. Turned behind, satu-satu nangis tersedu2. ahha.. But paling tak leh angkat when the dk guys came out to perform and sharul shouted , "Baik Pemain Gong Misai!" because the pemain gong nyer misai sungguh terserlah. Even before that when mi, illya and dee were queiung up for the tix, that misai guy was there. And i whispered to illya to see whether the misai tu betol nyer ke tak. AHAH. and illya said, " AKU PON TAK TAU." that misai became the bapak in acting too and the citer was supposed to be sad, but we kept luffin cuz teringatkan that misai. omg! Met some of the spmls peepz too, like beloved LaLa and Ezadd. They were all in white.wow! =)

Sat, had Khatu meeting the whole day. Before that had breakfast with amaliana first. We dunno wad to eat, so i told her takmo mkn KFC or MAC bcuz dee called jus now and ask me to bring extra money pasal nanti pat skola nk order delivery.So we ate LJS. and guess wad..when i reached sch..

Dee: Tina, ko bawak makanan ape ?
Me: Makanan? Ko ada suruh aku bawak makanan ke?
Dee: Ada pe. aku call ko tadi suruh ko bawak extra duit beli makanan bawak gi skola..
Me: AKU INGAT KO CKP KITA NK ORDER DELIVERY eh.. aku tak bawak ape2 pon!haha

oh well. blur me.

A bit depressed right now cuz things seems to have changed. Sometimes im pissed off at myself. When i realised i like someone, i would get all shy when im with him. Mcm i cant be myself larh. Padahal boleh kecoh lagik. So somebody tell me, how to make myself THICK SKINNED eh? so that everything looks normal. And its getting a bit annoying liking somebody whom im not suppose to like, for a reason. The chronicles of life..haiz.

Its time to promote khatu again. BYE!

2007-08-01T04:04:00.000-07:00

Confused confused.

i wanted so much to take part-time degree. I already have that motivation to study for tests and exams. I imagined myself goin to universities..I even imagined ME studying. and..do you know that its so hard to get me to study ??!! wakakaka. the money's not a problem(chett, step kaya), because i heard i can get a loan from mendaki and repay after a year's time. tu case kena save giler mcm lembu nyer ah. But then it slipped my mind that i can't go for dk or drama anymore, because classes are usually on mon, wed and fri. Am i ready to give up all that? haiz. without these two, it would be so hard larh kan to maintain the friendships. Aku kerja jer da mcm da lose contact ngan semua eh. so how? haiz, confuse confuse.. macam nak kol polis!

I cant wait for 3 months to be over. Increase in pay! And then after that i cant wait for 2 years to be over. Triple bonus! wee! hopefully i would still be working, just to get that triple.. and then after that, quit quit quit..hehe. And then i would still be working in that sch hopefully, because the Admin Manager says she can reserve a vacancy for me to be an AE in the sch if i want. erm ekceli aku tk tau larh AE tu ape benda but is like Below P and VP, is the AM and OM and belom them is AE. under government somemore.. sape tanak kan. and gaji beribu..

Im fickle-minded. Only the close ones know what is it all about. Seriously i dunno what im feeling like now.. Its a matter of WANT or DON'T WANT.. LIKE or DON'T LIKE. But i think is WANT and LIKE.. BUT i don't know how to approach and i don't want any commitments. I know im not even ready for a relationship. I fear the heartache of breakups after experiencing a few. I don't want to go thru an ordeal again. i don't want to go thru a a chinese drama, opera, or hindustan movie again. Yah i know, that every relationships ada perbezaan nyer. Yah i know, its stupid of me to not even dare to try out. But, trying out means that there is even a small percentage that your heart may be broken. so, why risk? Yah i know my mindset won't be like this in future. i noe the thinking will change and kalo ada jodoh, i may get together with some pervertic apek in the near future. AKU PON NAK NAIK PELAMIN K. but for now.. haiz. =) . So, is there anybody out there who is like me, whom wants to feel loved and love in return, but don't want any commitments???? sms me k. (WAKAKKAKAKAKA). Of cuz, it must be somebody im comfortable with. Because seriously, all i want now is the feeling of being pampered by a loved one. scandal or sandal pon jadi larh..ahha.

I need a SCANDAL with a vehicle. I just love the feeling of going out with somebody yang ada vehicle. mcm gerek+best+exciting larh kan. Tak pasal larh, motor ke kereta ke, mpv ke, lorry ke, VAN ke(hehe), truck ke. asalkan KENDERAAN. lol. i noe i noe, stupidity mindset. HAHA.

Helped out with P1 Registration yesterday. One of the parents name is Puan Bah Bee. WAKAKKAKA!! the wife is born in 1960 and the husband is born in 1948. MATI ah..

Went to watch the movie, Alone. Nope, din watch alone..manage to catch it with a friend larh.. ekceli tak larh se-scary sangat.. but a lot of buat terpranjat. but aku memang nie memang tak leh tengok larh citer hantuu..

Went for Gebiz Course today with Fida, Zubaidah and Farihana. Feels so weird without the guys.. macam senyap gituk. rindu pulak eh. nasib baik course nie ada hands-on computer.. boleh msn. the last course was so boring and takde computer, kita amek paper buat written MSN k...

i need a day alone at home. Sleep, eat, drink, shit and bla bla bla. Da lama seh tak buat kerja macam ginik!

DA!!

2007-07-27T09:47:00.000-07:00

Unfortunately today, i was involved in the P1 Open House today. 3 prefects on duty were supposed to be under me but then jaga 3 prefects jer mcm jaga 94048093403403 bdk kecik! But then ok larh..since our job was just to usher guests to the hall..and pack goodie bags. and my job was just to give ORDERS.hehe. and while i was ushering the kindergarten kids up to the hall..one of them came up to me and say..

" I want to tell you something... You look very SEXY. "

ahhh. tergamam jap k its not EVERYDAY u hear somebody call u sexy, and in my case NEVER ever ppl call me sexy larh kan. and den i look down at my clothes.

dengar2 pakai tudung, pakai dress sampai almost knee length, call SEXY???

sexy larh sangat ehh. hehehe.

2007-07-26T08:08:00.000-07:00

Reply to tags:

to eliza: yah lor..thats y larh my boyprens keep changing? muahahahahaha
to aMaLiNa: a'ahh!!ahahha kekek!!bee bee ckp kita kuang asam. wamkakaka
to fariza & illya: a'ah larh..wad to do..new boypren new skin..haha
to yanie: a'ah da ada!! =p
to shila: hehe..miss? baru jumpa tuari!keke.bes0k jumpa k..=p

DONE!

2007-07-24T07:51:00.000-07:00

halo abg2, kakak2,makcik2, pakcik2..

hah. oh well, im back here. i got so bored of xanga..told you im fickle minded! heh.

anyway, today was the day i finally got to go home straight after work.. GEREK! because i slept all thru the nite and woke up at 9.30pm. tu pon bgn nak tanak. nak kena buat kerja nyer pasal. nie semua si VP nyer pasal larh besok i have to go up infront of the teachers during contact time(AGAIN?!) and give a report on the ccas. alamak . part nie tk suka.. confirm melatah! oh god, give me the strength man.

anyway, im officially broke! aahh dila, liana and whoever u noe why k. hehe. waiting for the end of the month...cpt larh sampai..!!there are advantages & disadvantages working at central area, esp at a place like BUGIS. u noe its so tempting to just walk past the bugis village..sometimes kan mcm kena PUKAU larh kan..mcm MESTI go inside and see see. abeh kalo see see jer tkp gak, kalo lawa and cheap, mesti nak beli. cheap mmg ok..but LOADS of cheap thins is equals to MONEY k! haiya. i need help. i got to have some financial planning..kalo tk, camna eh nak kawin, you you? hehe.

my sat and sun was packed. Went CDM comp on sun.. gerek..! we laughed loads. esp the andika kencana karut..with his i-dunno-wad-dance-is-that gelek. since Piala Cilik k dia buat gituk! ahha. saw some old frens.. one of them whom made an impact oncein my life too..but kekek larh.. realised he performed when the grp was halfway performing. so i pointed out to fana and said that WAS my scandal...and described him. and it turns out when i turned behind after that, his GF was sitting right behind us. erm.. harap2 she dunno who we are tokin abt eh..and then after his grp performed, HE came to sit behind us. a few mins k tk brani pusing belakang! da mcm jangan pandanng blakang tol. oh well, citer lama. but i still reminisce the times at woodlands where we had loads of fun... So many memories there..almost cumin to 2 yrs aready eh.. haiz how time flies.

That day too, izit i looked small or wad, semua mcm tk nampak aku k! both Shahrul and Deris asked did i went because they saw other adiratna gers except me. tu larh aku da ckp aku da turun 10 kg, tanak caya ..hehe.

its been a great 2 days..no work because there's no ccas for two days. wee~~ lovin my job as the time goes by..

2007-07-23T08:09:00.000-07:00

Im back! for a reason. will update soon. =)

2007-04-08T06:40:00.000-07:00

Adiratna Chalet!!

But 1st, i wanna wish this frens of mine,

HAPPY 19th and 21st BIRD DAY, YAN-CIK & DADIDU!! moga cute-cute larh selalu dan moga2 dadidu REZEKI lebih, jadi leh blanja aku gi KL!!weeee!! =p

Adiratna 1st chalet was BEST.We turn 3 this year! k Sat morning had to go to sch for drama, in which i woke up super late i tell u cuz badan tk terlarat nk bangun after batam the day b4.baru pat dlm bus jer, abg mymy da call suruh dtg cpt. dgr2 aku leh suruh driver drive faster!hah. met dila up at bed0k ntuc and we dunno which to choose frm these 2 sets of daun ketumbar!ahah. nampak sah bedek seh, yg dua2 ekor nie slalu gi pasar! hah. headed den to fariza's house and eat CHILLI CRAB!!wah sungguh sedap sampai menjilat jari, kaki, dan yg lain yg sewaktu dgnnya. Ooopstthhhh. dpt jumpa adik dia yg kiut miut lagik. ahhahaa oopstthh shhh. Her dad sent us there. maceh Encik Fauzi! hehe.

GAMES were not lame at all. serious! Played Perompak, Tiang & Tsunami. haha. kekek gila! Pekik yg lebih, lari nyer sikit!hah. Last2 aku jadi one of the losers cuz i canot stop luffin? ONe time nie, aku n aikin nk buat tiangs. so we are supposed to stand and reach out our hands rite? aku SQUAT and hold her hands k! Member pon muka stunned aku nie nk jadi perompak ke tiang!ahha. imagine imagine!! haha. den huda pon satu, da tkd rumah nk masuk, mati2 nk selit pat umah org lain! hahe. huda, kepala maintain! =p

Next game guess sape ini? mcm musical chairs gituk ,play music den stop pat sape jer, we haf to take out a name frm the file, n mimic that person's name daily actions. mcm dia ada hobby garuk rambut ke. hah. best part, i got ILLYA , my PORNA BINI. so easy larh to descrfibe her, mus make horny face u noe! =p

Next game Scavenger hunt. pelik2 nyer benda k. mentang2 3rd anniversary, benda yg they ask semua 3 each! hah. they sae use creativity lagik. Tkd belts, kita amek baju den ikat jadi belt k. hah. abeh nk buat shoelace, buat pakai DAUN! tu pon tk mcm ribbon shoelace. tin cans, amek pat tong sampah k. paling tk leh angkat, pics of 3 hansome mamats. mana nk carik siot! haha. we werent sure whthr gambar dlm hp leh ke tk, so we went to dis terrace full of mamats. luckily, the person sae we can ask arnd. haha. last2 dpt satu thinner version of fauzie laily! suspek kuat adik dia tu! real life cute, dlm gambar tk cute lak. abeh not counted. nasib baik dlm hp ada gambar fauzie laily chico n bla bla bla. hehe. but satu nie cute gilaaaa larh kaann pat chalet mamat tu. fuhhh. tk leh ang ! nk cuci gambar dia buat tgk pat dlm toilet ah. MUAHAHAHA.

After that, thats when the crying parts come in. satu2 melalak mcm mati laki, or cicak, or katak, or semut or monyet. sungguh mendukacitakan skali.. serious ah..satu2 sedih smcm. haiz. asal eh?

PASAL KITA TGK CITER Kabhi Khusi Kabhie Gham LAH KAN!! aku ngan fariza pat lantai. the rest pat sofas, chairs. YA allah, satu2 so dramatic!tissue paper berujuta lak tu. hehe. aku chill, nangis tu nangis, tapi nangis case sendiri sedih ah.muakakaka. citer abes kol 4am n most went to slp. But kita2 nie gila mcm aku, fariza, amaliana, yaty n kyn ..we main UNO!! while tgk citer Effel im in love. ahha. tapi buang current jer k. kita on tv jadi tk sunyi tempat jer. ehhe. Kyn-kong wanted to go n slp but we wun let her unless dia menang!kesian member, main 4343439 games, asyik dia jer last. oh well, we are experts, wad to do biasalah artiste!hehe. last2 aleh2 out of a sudden, dia leh MENANG. bila part dia ckp, " UNO!" kan, i said sumthing like, WAH KYN! Betul ke ko da last card, tk pernah2 ko UNO!haha. she slept larh at 5, tu pon beds da full kena tido pat living room. satu2 tido mcm katak k! heh. yg belen2 nie, kita gi bbq k. pasal lapar balik. imagine eh bbq kol 5 pagi. da buang tebiat! dee, illya, pinkphreak n fazliana went berendam. satu2 basah kuyup balik heh. and so balik larh kita but still haf to wait 1 hr for d shuttle bus. haiyoo. sempat main uno lagik. abeh kita tk balik straight tau. ramai2 gi New York Pizza k!ahha. mcm boring seh balik cpt. even thou aku da ngantuk gila k. hah.part best is bual ngan fariza, bila member bual i was actually listening, tup tup i din realise aku da tertido! member woke mi up by patting my back.PAISEH seh!!haha. btw, its not d 1st time i slept while havin a conversation wif a fren k. muahaha. balik ngan aisiah n ellin. ehhee. 3 dara tido. aku part tido dlm mrt mmg buruk slalu. air liur larh, tertido atas bahu org sebelah larh. muakaka. teringat kenangan attachment, hari2 tido dlm mrt!

thrs a reason why we raise up our hands. HEH.

Nice rite?Shida Rocker make! Happy 3 Yrs Adiratna! ;)

2007-04-06T10:15:00.000-07:00

IM IN LOVE.

with BATAM MARI!!!

lil updates before i rest my eyes.. Im so CRAZY over batam now. haha. jus g0t back frm batam, with eka aka eka mairina, aizad aka drebar and yan_tam. AND OUR PARENTS!!!! muakakakaka. for me, whole family(pasal nk org sponsor,tkd duit nyah!), eka n mum, yan n mum n makciks, n kesian, Aizad alone. heh. encountered some probs over at the jetty..sesungguhnya.. tix kita, tk gi batam center which we are supposed to go! dia gi SEKUPANG instead. so kita da mcm bangla pelarian larh berdiri pat tepi jetty while yan_tam settled stuffs. hehe. and SHOPPING SPREE BEGINS!!! dis trip, totally sponsored by parents, unlike the last 2 trips. but sesungguhnya bila aku yg beli benda2 time dulu, tk beli sebanyak hari ini k! hah. mentang tk kuar duit! =p sesungguhnya boleh menggugat keimanan shoppin di batam. BAJU2 DIA LAWA BANGET!!!tk payah beli benda lain, beli baju jer da cukup tau tau! Dadidu, kita gi batam jer k? tk yah ah gi KL ..muahahha.

Din take much pics.. How to take pics when.. time is so rushing, we are all rushin to shop! hehe. could onli take a few pics here and there and i spoke LESS THAN 20 sentences to yan_tam k pasal member sibuk ngan scandal baru dia, aku sibuk ngan shoppin wit parents. and the other two are bz wit each other. heh. so i've suggested, nxt time tk yah ah ajak saudara mara semua k!!! keke. pics here .

k. ngantuk gila bab nyer. chalet chalet !! weeeeee!!

2007-04-01T23:27:00.000-07:00

i noe the juara's being waiting for my latest entry. so here goes!! hah.

my weekend was fantastic, very much well enjoyed. and even thou i was pokai, it sure din feel like i was broke! sat pagi2 buta jer da conference ramai2. tk rasa mcm pagi tau! heard that another grp of frens ramai2 went anugerah. dgr2 out of all of them satu jer dpt masuk! WAH! nk kena best frens ah ngan satu tu. leh tangkap glamour. HEHE. never ever wear heels to TOWN. mcm nk jln barefooted k. i din expect thr wld be a lot of walkin larh kan. ekceli was supposed to stop at orchard, but member sebelah aku nie lom abes dgr mp3ku and she's not goin d0wn with me so i planned to stop at somerset. last2 terlajaaaaaaaak k cuz tk tau somerset nyer busstop pat ner. hah. so i had to stop at dhoby gaut... and walk all the way to TAKA ! wen all had meet, we dunno whr to go so decided to lepak at borders. thats not all k. after lepakin at borders, ada 2 ekor nie nk gi istana park so we walked AGAIN..sempat gi topman/topshop. said my byes to them at somerset and wait for my fren. wen he came, dia ckp dia nk gi taka!! so jln larh balik to taka. by that time, kaki da mcm setan k. we took train to ang mo kio, and got on car to punggol for a fren's sis open house. dpt mkn free! woohooo! even thou tk kenal kakak dia, tapi leh kenal2 kan. hehee. SUn met scandalzku, nora drama n juara at geylang... nasi ayam penyet!!sedap banget.. menjilat jari jemari!den to pasir ris park.. to memotek..muahahaha~~

Tues..crazy affair..dinner at bed0kwit the peepz.. infront of the mac, ada org ada fits..kecoh sehhh.. fren ckp tk leh letak pape dlm mulut tu sudu ke ape, n biarkan dia jer gituk tunggu ambulance dtg. cebedah, mentang2 nurse! =p

k da masuk zohor nie.. jap lagik jumpa kyn-kong. bye!

2007-04-01T10:16:00.000-07:00

It seems like only yesterday, loads of thins happened.

It seems like only yesterday, i joined Fajar Sec. kental k, baju besar nk mampus, skirt panjang sampai lutut, butang sampai to the LAST button, rambut mcm saloma(atau saloma pon kalah, HAH!).

It seems like only yesterday, in sec 3, we got together. SUNGGUHTAKMENDUGAKAN.blogspot.com k. it was totally unexpected. like suddenli we both tot, hey y not we go together since we understood each other so much? Keeping low profile was hard. VERY hard. last2 cannot make it larh due to sebab2 yg tk senonoh. hehe.

It seems like only yesterday, i join band in sec sch. bila da choose cca, straight away kol mama. kena pekik k asal amek band. she wanted me to choose more meaningful ccas..like LIBRARY ke st john ke. she dun let me join NPCC pon cuz she say i wld faint if i join that. muahahahahaha.

It seems like only yesterday, i in band joined our 1st SYF comp. Can still remember k the tenseness while waiting to enter the stage. 1st big comp, in my whole life! Unless u consider the teeny weeny RECORDER PLAYIN ON STAGE in pri sch as MAJOR comps. heh. we danced to release the tension. mcm setan k joget. This person was the ONLY MALAY PERSON in sch im so comfortable wif and cld chat so much to. pasal time sec sch, tk bual bnyk to malays cuz im gagap.. but onli in malay lang. pelik kan pelik kan? heh. thats y in sec , my frens were all chi. pegi cca sama2 yer larh rumah depan2 jer seh. But, its sad larh cuz now when i see him somewhr in the neighbourhood, we dun tegur. Nak tegur pon mcm terfikir nk ckp ape seh..

It seems like only yesterday, i FLUNKED my f&n o level practical. k well, on the spot mmg kita tk tau ah results but after i seen the end result of my masterpiece, mcm da leh agak, CONSPERM fail! hah. wanted to cook, CHINESE FRIED RICE, but i dunno wad came out larh eh.. its burnt, and even thou its colourful like wad chinese fried rice shd haf, my teacher dun wan to eat it even wen 840340 times i said, she wun die eating it. HAHA.

It seems like only yesterday, happened the frequent-sleepin-in-the-class sessions. I realli cannot control ah my ngantukness even thou i sit in the front, and beside the teacher's OHP somemore.

It seems like only yesterday, my history teacher started calling me VIOLET when he saw my face turn purple when i laughed.

It seems like only yesterday, i was told by the DM(is the same history teacher too, musibut!) to stand infront of the parade square during mornin assembly as a MODEl, holding up my bottle of daily ice-lemon-tea bottle to tell the school we are not allowed to bring sweet drinks to class k! pagi2 buta da jadi artiste k!

It seems like only yesterday, my 1st time played pool i accidentally poked sumb0dy's butt bila nk part tarik. org blkg tu lompat mcm pantat kena api gituk eh.ehhe

It seems like only yesterday, for the whole of 4 yrs, i havee a big crush on my band instructor. sanggup k naik lrt pasal dia pon naik lrt. padahal walkin distance frm lrt to home, jauh banget!

It seems like only yesterday, i went for NP sports camp in 1st yr. in grp Neutron! remember wahid being in the same grp as me. best larh love that grp..on the last nite, we tok under the stars at the blue track and of all days, i din realised halfway, i had fallen asleep. padahal its supposed to b the grp's last nite together!wen i woke up, i imeediately ask my fren did i snored or not. she said no. tapi tgk muka yg lain2 mcm lain mcm jek.......HEHE.

It seems like only yesterday, Adiratna compete 1st comp, sri temasek. best bonding. masih teringat..nick name dulu given by abg wan was ALANIS MORRISETTE k. reason? i aso dunno y!HAHA.

It seems like only yesterday, i went to KL wit the ex. waduhh...BEST BANGET. esp part nak kena naik lrt pat sana. da beli card, we were wondering mcm mana nk pakai tu card k! pasal bukan tap, bukan ape. haha..selenger sak that time. part tk leh angkat, mlm2 tk tau ape nk buat, kita gi internet cafe. mcm tk cukup2 surf net pat Singapore gituk! nk gi club, tk pandai gi. heh

It seems like only yesterday, 1st time ku ke batam mari! k panas gilaaaa, tapi best ah SHOPPING! this fri im goin againnnnnnnnnnn!! wooohooo!!

It seems like only yesterday, we had trainins for Tun Perak. alarhh yg dpt 2nd tu larh. heh. satu trainin nie, bila ku ngah minum air, tersedak jap, tersembur pat org depan k..kesian member..mcm mandi junub gituk! =S. sampai skrg rasa guilty seh seh.

It seems like only yesterday, i met the director of the course.. for LOW ATTENDANCE. and very low very low. hampir2 kena debarred frm module. NASIB baik ah. tunjuk muka kesian..wakkakaka

It seems like only yesterday, i cried over sumbody. and still very sad very sad till now. ;)

ekceli loads more. but to be continued larh!

2007-03-30T05:48:00.000-07:00

I once was in a dilemma on which grp of frens to choose. Noe y i had to choose? cuz when i was frens with both of these 2 grps, i had to live a life revolving LIES. If i was out with A, i cant let B members noe cuz they had always advise me that A's character is bla bla bla and i would regret if i continue being frens wif A. IF i go out wif B, i can't let A noe cuz A doesnt like B and A is the jealous type(kawan aku, means kawan aku,org lain tk leh kawan ngan kawan aku)even thou they two are frens. So, i made a choice that time. I stick with A and frens because i had feelings for A and im quite comfortable wif their frens. But i wasnt really comfortable, that part i aso dunno y. Padahal went out wif them like zillions of times aready. And they treat me like one of their own. But like there's sumthin missing in the friendship of ME and THEM. Aku tau aku mmg org susah nk warm up to ppl, but takkan lama nah eh? I dun tok much wen im wif them..its like i feel, kalo ada aku ada ah. kalo tkd pon tkp. I had great times with them, that i never deny.. great moments that i will keep in my heart.. like one time main uno ramai2, kalo ada org dpt cards tk bagus, mesti dorang ckp nie mesti yg org yg shuffle tu tk ceb0k. AHHA. kekek siot. i cant sae out wad are all the gd times, cuz kalo da say out, confirm org will guess sape eh sape eh. ahaha.

As i was enjoying myself wif A n frens, i neglected the feelins of B and frens. not that i want to, but somehow a part of me feels guilty towards them and i dun have the guts to face them anymore. And i noe, some din trust me anymore as i had become close to A. In the past, A and B always tell me bad things abt vice versa. mcm middle woman la nk katakan. but i try my best to stay neutral. sometimes i sae, no larh mayb its not wad u make it out to be. but penat jugak tau when both of them dun wan to solve out their problems themselves. dua2 tunggu the other person to make a move. bila nk maju sak?! haha.

For some reasons, I left this grp of A n frens cuz i knew the true frens are B n frens. Sampai skrg eh, sumtimes in the back of my mind mesti i will ask myself, whthr did i make the rite choice? because kan sometimes i dunno y i will tink back to the gd memories and will miss the times. But i noe its f0r my own good. At the same time, i tried best to gain the trust of B n frens. I apologize to them cuz i noe it was my fault. not onli that, there was another C whom i ignored totally.. i called the person back, and luckily he understood the situation. And yes! i was happy because y lose a lot of frenships for one person who doesnt feels the same way that i feel? Going out with B and frens were BEST. i was MYSELF, not shy and i felt myself being a part of it. ;)

Now, if im not wrong a friend of mine is feeling the same way that i feel long long time ago. When i've said, DON'T get close. Be only just frens..and yeah, that fren said, dun worry she's a very definite person. But then, y do i see you doing actions that are contradicting to your words? Or, has that person mesmerised you with his sweet talks(nie mesti minum berlambak BUBBLE TEA!) ? Why feel that u've sacrificed a lot wen actually in the beginning, it was YOUR choice? why are u blaming others for the outcome that you are facing now? Do YOU noe that nobody trust you now? Haven you notice ppl that were close to you once are drifting away from you? You tot everybody likes u..u expect everybody to like u. you yourself WONDER y ppl dun like u. Takkan org saja2 main2 tk suka kan. kalo satu jer tk suka, mayb org tu larh yg ada prob. tapi kalo nie RAMAI yg tk suka? den it mus be sumthin wrong wif u rite? We may not say anithing, because we dun wan to hurt ur feelings. But, haiz.. takkan asyik nak ditegur jer kan. Kalo tegur leh accept takp gak. Tapi kita tau kalo kita tegur, we noe ur the type tk leh accept tegurans.

haiyo ..kesiaaannn ahhhhhhh pat nie mcm oranggg!!

2007-03-28T08:40:00.000-07:00

A NEW ME A NEW MEE! =p

K DA! camat!

2007-03-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

1stly HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to DILAH CHOMBI!!

it seems like onli yesterdae we were celebratin ur bday at EAST COAST!!ingat tk ingat tk? hehe..kenangan manis k..includin some frens that we have lost over the months were there too..;) thnkew for the everlasting frenship..for 3 plus l0ng years! =)

tml i have a trip to Jurong Bird Park.haha to see the birds(dunno g0t bees or not eh?) over there. ahha! ekceli tk ah.goin ther f0r BUSINESS.chett da mcm org besar mana! kekee.

so the life's been happy, cuz i've lost weight! haha. betul2.nie bukan main2 nie betol2. oh well, thats wad the peeps say larh..they sae my face has lose weight! sape tk happy kalo bukan satu org jer yg ckp , but 2 or 3 different ppl? nie must be the effect stay pat umah, satu hari tido pat umah. tu pon org ckp aku nie abeskan beras pat umah larh, membabi buta pat umah larh..... bukan satu jer yg ckp..2 org yg ckp k! confident aku mkn beras pe! dgr2 tk yah masak dulu?aku mkn nasi k.hehe..

Anyway..skrg ngah stress cuz i've been involved in somethin i dun wan to be involved in!! mati ahhh... tk sabar for CHALET!!! =)

2007-03-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a day of much luffters.

k 1st was supposed to haf an interview at 3.45pm at this iforgotthename building. so tgk lar streedirectory.com..and it stated that its near outram station. so kalo naik bus kan..kena turun 5 stops after dh0by gaut station(cuz i dunno mana outram larh kan). so da sampai dh0by gaut aku kira larh..but tgh nk kira tu,ada member kol..i picked up his call n bual nyer bual, tk tau k da pat ner! n wen i TOT larh its the 5th busstop and i went d0wn, pat CLARKE QUAY k! abeh mcm setan ah. jam tangan menunjukkan tepat 3.30 petang. so ape lagik, initially was supposed to meet amaliana n kyn @ clarke quay after interview. so i met them but nv go for interview k!muahaha

we went there to ______ and best ah! dpt makanan murah..dpt tgk mat hensem lagik. ehhe. coincidence on the same day, juara n karut ajak main pool wif them. so i asked larh liana n kyn along. juara ckp the pool place is near lavender larh kan. so wen we aready took d bus goin to lavender, dila sae they are at Concourse and lavender stn is far frm there, bugis lagik dekat. so kita jln k gi bugis! den pat bugis tu, we tried to find bus 100, cuz dila claims 100 goes to Concourse. but cannot find the busstop!heh. last2, juara ckp salah2, lavender lagik dekat. so we t00k bus frm bugis back to lavender k! ekceli pernah lah aku gi Concourse tu..aku tau opposite tu mr soya bean, tapi aku nie street idiot larh kan. aku ingat how it looks like but i dun rememebr h0w to get thr!muahaha.

so we met them at beach rd.. in which they sae dorang da main pool sampai 430483430 jam k while tunggu kita. ahha. then pat beach rd tu, ekceli aku da kenyang, tk haus pon ah. tapi baya pat sana asyik tanya, " minum ? minum? tk mau minum ah? " sampai aku naik pissed off, aku beli bandung so that baya tu will stop askin k! haha. k so ada fariza, dila, ghaffar, tina, syam, kyn n liana..aha. best seh gossip2 like nobody's businesss. muahaha.

after that, awok, juara,karut n gongcang ada hajat larh nk jln gi bugis kan. tapi last2 tk jln, pasal dorang semua tk caya aku in leading the way. so we t00k the bus larh kan. turns out we t00k the wrong side larh. so we went d0wn... n tukar larh hajat nk ke mustapha lak. so we t00k dis one bus.. den bila dia pass simlim, aku ckp larh eh kitorang da pass simlim. den last2 bus tu tk pass mustapha pon straight gi t0wn k!! tu ah, bila aku ckp da pass simlim, tkd org nk turun!haha. so last2 kita sampai t0wn, wen do u remember the initial plan was to go bugis k .

n in the bus, ada mamat nie tried to tackle they 3 ONLY, mamat tu ckp dia org muslim..padahal pat tangan pegang sebotol beer k . nk tipu ngan si penipu. blardigol tol.

happy larh smlm.. tapi tk happy sangat pasal ku tk terjumpa kawan fariza yg muka n everythin mcm _ _ _ ! da larh taste aku. hehe.

btw, np will b having a production..mostly drama..but got dikir, tarian n lang too included. so make larh urselves free on the 28th april k. say0nara!

2007-03-19T02:24:00.000-07:00

What we felt yesterday.. it was a feeling only 23 of us understood ah.. if this is going to bring us down, then i dunno how are we going to bring up the morale and spirit of the group for future comps. Lets take a look at Anak Seni @ Citra 2005.. sape yg gi tu comp jer larh yg tau wad happened to them..and then, they suprised us with an OOOMMPHH! set at Planet dikir 05..pLayin Thai StYle..sAmpai Skrg da 1 yr later masih teringat2 k lagu dia because their song is super nice.. sO i just hope we can be like them and never give up.. mayb some wld have think our efforts all gone to waste, but if u tink of the experience gained, u wld have smile.. and of cuz we can apply them to future comps. or mayb korang ingat pasal nie comp, korang ketolak tepi a lot of ur thins ah.. homework ke.. boyfren ke.. work ke.. den last2 mcm setan .. korang pon kena ingat..mana ada grps yg slalu menang all d way.. biar malu , paiseh, niari ah..but pls jng terbawak2 ke es0k hari ah.. mmg betol ah kalo to those yg tk put in effort, mmg patut kena sembelih..but those whu did their best, kudos.. tau mesti ada yg disappointed giler babi ah..if other grps can buck up, i dun see why we cannot buck up ah.. mayb its bad of me.. cuz aku mcm tk sedih..kalo ckp tk sedih, tu nampak sah bedek ah(line nie mcm ada kena mengena ngan gajah jer?hehe) but mayb cuz aku think positively..

jom larh kita ramai2 terus memperjuangkan seni dikir kk ?

2007-03-16T09:03:00.000-07:00

I give up on myself.

Macam setan.

Its all coming back. The memories once had are coming back, unfortunately, good ones. The bad ones, i have long forgotten, thanks to this memory of mine. Yg buruk tanak ingat jadi leh serik, yg baik pulak ingat. I tried my very best larh sia to shake those feelings away. The best part is, i din want the feelings to come back! it came back cuz 'something' happen. Mati ah..sungguh unexpected.com.sg . It left mi confused, bewildered, weird. It got me thinking..wads the motive? Macam seram sejuk terasa ngeri(mcm familiar jek) larh kan when sumbody's attitude suddenli change towards you. Mayb ppl will sae, tina i tink its a small thin, doesnt mean anithing. but i still keep thinkin, mcm setan larh! why why why..why n0w ..when i've just began to move on with my life, when i've not yet gotten over, when the memories are still fresh in the head..when your actions still affect me one way or another..when in fact which i hate to admit, im still copin with the fact that there's no more you in my life. I noe myself. to forget u, i haf to avoid u abes giler. kalo dgr nama jer da affect me, ape lagik bila jumpa pat luar? aku rasa tk dpt tido satu malam sak. I was so proud of myself that i was doing so well.. and yet now, i feel that i've failed.

the best part is, during these 24 hrs i tried to get you out of the brain, but the heart wun let.

thanks eh heart.

macam setan.

setan larh sangat.

why are there so many coincidences in life??????

Letting go of you that time was hard for me. I wish it would be easier this time.

2007-03-14T22:28:00.000-07:00

A friend of mine is getting engaged sooon. Congrats.She's been with the same guy since secondary school! i wonder wads the feeling like gettin engaged at the age of onli 21..nasib baik engaged jer la kan. and not married. my mum got married at 21. ntah mana dorang dpt duit seh bnyk2..hehe. cuz im 21 dis year, and im pokai! =p

It brings a smile to your face to noe ur old long lost frens are getting engaged/married bla bla. it makes u reminisce abt the old school days wen we were still playing catching. muahaha.. kenangan tol.. just the other day, found out from a fren of mine that another fren got married aready. padahal her body is so small, she dun look like my age. i guess..they are ready for married life huh ? =p

Just now, suddenly i tot back to frenships which i had made over the years..as the years pass, i move on wif life.. even thou the frenships is not as strong as it was in the 1st place, u should noe that a part of me, still remembers you. Some ppl manage to still keep the frenships going, frm pri sch larh, sec sch larh, poly larh.. but cannot deny rite sumtimes its hard too? like the other day, i was quite sad larh that i have to part wif the attachment peepz after being wif them for 6 months..its been 1 mth plus since we last met, and im ok araedy..mcm ada ah rindu banget, but den tk sangat..most importantly, i remember the great times we had..my best sec sch fren for 4 yrs..we did everythin together, go sch, back home, queue up..wakaka. when we got to poly jer, we found ourselves drifting apart, padahal sama poly. we tried to catch up once in a while, and a few mths ago we went to a fren's bday party together. but it jus wasnt the same. the topics to t0k abt has been lesser, sumtimes we get uncomfortable too trying to tink out topics to tok abt.

sumtimes i wish we would not need to get on wif life... then everythin will jus stay the same. gpa is finally over.. missing the closeness wif them, but i noe it was onli for that short time we were close..now i've officially graduated.. confirmed it wun be the same anymoree cuz the time spent wif the mcc peepz wld be lesser.. have to depend on trainings to keep in contact larh... but, would it still be the same? ;) in np, friends have come and go..i remember back in MCC dulu, we set up a UTS club. UTS stands for Under The Sea..muahah.aku pon tk ingat bagaimana leh set up nie club..den some members ada nad ikan duyung larh..kai siput..i remembered i became kerang..yanie kupang.. and ada lagik tk ingat.. den we got another club lagik.. the -o0ot club. basically ur names end wif oot. tino0ot, dee-dot, diloot, illyo0ot.. so now u noe larh how mi, dee n dila got our oots from. i tink we are d onli ones left still stuck wif these names..

the topic so sensitive todae because sumthin happened jus now which made me tink back to all nice memories i had.. haiz.

salamz.

2007-03-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

tags replied:

to huda: aku pon tk tau asal la huda. dia mcm da chop sijil halal trademark ko like d rest said. hehehe. kalo pekak, konfem huda. heh

to naq: wahhh. bila masa aku SEXY. heh.. aiyaaa. mus kip d smile for sun larh pasal mak kau ckp aku senyum fake pe!!Hehe =p

to scandalzku: ayang, aku see the light at the BEGINNING of the tunnel seh. since bila mrt kuar dari tunnel, kan da leh nampak light dia?HEHE

to aMaLiNa: aikz ko pon, bila part nk cannon huda, aleh2 tag pat tagboard aku. HAHA. kalo tk, batang hidung pon tk nampak .hehe

to fariza: aku pon pass yang!aku dapat B for attachment!!muahahah!!!

naq always ask abt updates on my life. hmmm... i dunno wads happening to me larh nowadays kan. I have lots of friends. Some, beginning to be more than friends. But it just stops there. mcm..da contact sampai climax, aleh2 stop. all because i din reply them back. mcm rasa di hati mcm.. malas? its like mmg nk mengenali lagik rapat, but halfway jer, suddenli hate the feeling of sumbody controlling not ur life. not exactly controlling larh. but like always ask where are u larh, what u doin larh those kind of stuffs. i dunno y im feeling like this larh kan. malas nk buat alot of thins. malas nk matair. malas nk keep in contact ngan kawan lama. malas nk kerja. malas nk CARIK kerja. malas nak SMS org. malas nk TANYA KABAR. semua larh. dis one fren bought bday present for me LAST YEAR, sampai skrg dia lom bagi2 lagik cuz we always cant find the time to meet. or rather, i always gif excuses im busy. oh g0sh. im admitting im gettin from bad to worse. and i dunno how to solve dis problem.die die...well, enuff said abt that.

4 days have passed since our win. shdnt harp on it anymore..fame tu kan slalu skejap jer...den things will get to normal..kalo stars di langit one dae pon leh pupus, ape lagik star yg pat muka aku nie?ehhee...chett mcm paham jer aku bual. =p

dk trainings. at d end of d trainings penat semacam setan. harap2 nuttin g0es on wr0ng larh and semua tk rushing, thats most important. harap2 yan-tam doakan lagik since dia ckp that time dia doakan kita larh thats y we won gpa. mujarab tol doa dia!heh. fri rating, sat selection. sungguh takut sekali!

nari jer kol 10am jumpa si mamat tu teman dia gi interview cuz i printed the resume for him. n nak kasi dia balik duit skali larh. sempat makan thosai masala(ke masala thosai?) pat tekka. sungguh sedap sekali abeh $1.80 jer seh. part paling best. dia bagi 1 jug ngan 2 gelas and i thougt its for washing our hands. rupanya air putih buat minum larh kan. heh~ .den teman beli baju raya. mesti k0rang wonder asal ada org da beli kain raya padahal raya bulan 10 eh? ahah. dun ask me! heh. KAIN SARI PUNYA NAH LAWA...N MURAH BANGET. aku rasa kain aku semua nk beli pat situ!!

sempat gak jln pat lorong-lorong..tgk PROSTITUTE BAPOK. mcm best larh. kita da mcm detective k berdiri pat satu corner tunggu bapuk tu kuar dari pintu. n finally wen he?she? finally came out, fuuhhhlamakkk..body POWER babe!! hehe. dgn rambut ikal mayang dia..ehhehe. tk sempat tgk muka seh. mana tau ada ciri2 bollywood star ke, porn star ke etc etc. heh. den i tink because we look so sneaky, one uncle kept looking at us. WAKAKAK. bila sampai ke Golden Landmark, dia masuk kedai, tak kuar2 pulak so i went to sit at the fountain busy tgk hp. aleh2 somebody came up to me and said, 'excuse me, can i ask bla bla bla.." rupanya abg im n wifey eh! tpranjat larh kan of all ppl. da tak leh cabut dk.oopsssstt.(mmg tk plan to cabut pon!) hehe. so accompanied dia balik larh to hougang den ada satu tempat nie dia tunjuk larh tempat tu ada bai jual roti sedap giler. ahha. aku lak ckp dia lom rasa roti bai-tina lagik sedap. hehehe.

n best arh fana, aku rasa aku da leh jadi pengasas seh selepas incident pat training tadi. wkakakaka. aku nak ajar group ADI-PUTRA larh lepas nie. hehee. =p

or mayb the heart has given up for the things that had happened in the past...

2007-03-10T22:12:00.000-08:00

GEMA PUISI ARTISTIK(EDITED)

ada member aku from the Adiratna team(chett, da mcm rocker sak) suruh aku update panjang2 abt yesterday..so here i am bloggin away..to make the post LONGER.hehe. sesungguhnya, mak aku ngah tgk suria skrg in case aku kuar berita lagik. thnks eh.

yesterday was a dream came true for the 10 of us, consisting of me, fana, min, diana, syura, rizal, topet, nora, hizamy & yantie...sabarnyer hizamy bila nk mainkan music..pasal sesungguhnya radio clbhse mcm SETAN..sampai radio2 tu kalo dia boleh bedal, dia da bedal..but most importantly, to abg, for guiding and having the faith in us. thnks for the luffters during trainings.. the mepeks.. even the disagreements/quarrels jus few days to the comp.. best experience ever!!! And the results for Gema Puisi Artisik 2007 yesterday a competition of 12 schools, adalah... jeng jeng jeng!

Naskah Terbaik : Politeknik Ngee Ann

Lagu Ciptaan Asli Terbaik: Institut Millenia

Penghafalan Terbaik: Sekolah Menengah Fuhua

Artistik Terbaik: Politeknik Ngee Ann

Tempat Pertama: Politeknik Ngee Ann

Tempat Kedua: Politeknik Nanyang

Tempat Ketiga: Politeknik Singapura

tk kusangka larh kan. it was a big jump from nothing to SOMETHING. But yet, we noe, we could not have done it without the help of our abg. =). Just the day b4, we were stressed out and pening satu2 because a chunk of the steps have been changed and we could still not get it right. But then b4 we stepped into NYJC, we said our prayers infront of the school. i like hizamy's words, " kita tak mengharapkan kemenangan, tapi kita mengharapkan yang terbaik." I just wished that everythin would go smootly, suara tk terkehel, kita tk lupa steps, org tk lupa line, etc etc. kemenangan? hmm.. mcm susah lah kan. Judging that we never won in the past 2 years.Kalo larh dapat tempat ketiga pon aku rasa by luck kot kalo betol2 dapat. Memang larh tak dinafikan ada larh citer2 besar nak menang, but kalau tak menang pon, we noe its ok cuz we are still improving. Banyak lah cobaan dia lah kan. 8 org. 8 different perangai. hehe. attendance prob larh.. org2 kita yg gi OE larh, steps tk dpt larh etc. now im wondering mayb ada hikmah di sebalik nyer asal KL trip was cancelled. cuz initially, KL trip is from 4th - 9th March. Imagine, kalo larh aku,rizal, hizamy n bla bla bla gi, nk trainin ape eh? HEHE. but then, i believe each schools mesti ada menghadapi their own difficulties b4 the event.

Suprisingly, we shared the same room as SP, most of d peepz were our old frens from Awallah Dondang such as arip, suhaila,fuad n bla bla bla. PENDEK kata, room tu tk pernah senyap ah. sempat tau 2 skolah amek gambar mcm SETAN pat dlm room tu. padahal ada lagik satu skola lain, First Toa Payoh pat dlm eh.hehe. We also took pics wif Noraziela.Lawa lah dia!!And so it came to a part NYJC ppl tell us to get ready in 5 mins time its our turn. tapi 15 min kemudian pon tkd org dtg to tell us its our turn eh. sempat kita baca doa selamat one more time lagik k! ahah. dgn baju yg membahangkan(tapi style k!), mcm nk bukak tu baju and run around naked. In which i tink, konfem judges automatically letak kita 1st just so i would wear the clothes back. MUAHAHA.

hmm. gd larh. we did the best. unfortunately, the sound system buat spoil PELAN SANGAT!so mcm susah lah kan nk tangkap mood. mood ape? mood rockers ahh. its weird when kita semua mcm punk rock pekik2 atas stage abeh sound mcm at level 1. da mcm 'silent whisper' pat singapore idols eh. "pls do not turn the volume up." HEHE .it seems the sound was aready at tahap maxima even abg mymy(hizamy), tanya org tu tk leh kuatkan lagik ke. aku tak tau izit bdk np ada penyakit pekak(originated from huda), ke NY nyer sound system da 847399384 tahun tak updated. We were straining the ears k just to hear the music amongst all the sorakan supporters. Its because, we have specific steps for different parts of the music.

Masa nak tunggu results pon kekek semcm eh. sesungguhnya aku ngan fana nie tk tau larh sape the judges.so bila ada satu pakcik nie went up to gif his speech, we automatic assume thats one of judges, chief judge ke etc. So kita dua nie da risau ah kalo judges yg case tua2 nyer konfem kita tk akan menang pasal set kita mcm rock2 giler abes nyer. Mesti dorang will like those old sch nyer pe. so kita da sedih smcm larh. den lepas tu lak heard the NY host sayin the chief judge will come up to gif an ulasan. LAHHH. rupanya yg tua guy tu is the ntah org besar mana bukan JUDGE. abeh speech punya nah panjang..ahha. LERRRRR..

Tak sangka lah the 1st award jer, presented to kita!hehe. mcm rasa, are our ears playin tricks on us? but of cuz, the 1st award was given to abg cuz its HIS. =) b4 d top 3 were announced, hizamy keep saying tak menang takpe, tak menang takpe. wkakakka kekek sak. Then was announced SP 3rd, NYP, 2nd. so i was like telling fana ah aku rasa kita tk menang mayb kita menang individual pialas jer. den bila dorang ckp POLITEKNIK, da start pekik k!! OMG!! tk sempat hug org sebelah2 pasal kita2 da mcm tk ingat dunia. ahha. amek trophy jer, sempat ckp ALHAMDULLILAH as a grp. nie bukan main2. We are realli bersyukor. =) We din manage to catch NYP or SP's set, but i believe mesti gerek kan kan!!

dinner @ Ang mo kio after that and icecream @ mac wit fana, huda, dee, kyn, ellin n dila. Dee, Ellin n i wanted to take the cab and dee brought us to an ILLEGAL taxi stand k! so wad do i mean by illegal? dia mcm, tkd signboard ke notice indicating that the area is a taxi stand but ada 2 grps of ppl queiueng up eh. so when we got there jer, aku ckp ah, illegal taxi stand seh nie. abeh ternampak org depan ketawa. wakakak. terasa nampak!!ehhe.

thanks for makin yesterday possible, the GPA peepz, abg, mcc peepz n those whu supported us. and the schools who participated, well done! and of cuz thankew to the judges too. hehehehe.

NP GPA video @ http://biskot.multiply.com/video/item/15?mark_read=biskot:video:15 courtesy of dila.

now, im geared up for Bintang Seni!!!weeeeeeee!!!!

2007-03-07T06:37:00.000-08:00

Mood: Religious

Today dunno y i feel extra tired than the other days..and feel hungry semacam..case mkn 10 pinggan nasi bertepek ngan 3 mcm lauk pon tak kenyang2 gak seh.. Finally, set for drama comp finish aready...for dikir comp aso finished aready.. YESSAAAAAAAAA. at the end of the day, the two hands and legs are so tired..mcm nak naik kenderaan sendiri jer balik.. haiz..tapi tkp..shall wait for the license patiently..muahaha..

yesterday the mum mati2 paksa g0 d0c..cuz the cough's been 2 weeks aready.. rushed d0wn to nafa after that.. of cuz, i lost my way..walked a few streets passed by bank of china so mamy times baru sampai..padahal da brape kali seh pass by nafa and its jus beside the al-jilani restaurant..which i g0 so many times aready..and kita buat recording!! wah.. smlm larh hari yg kita semua ada feeling2 mcm ARTISTES..hehe. overall not bad larh. suara pon tk mcm setan..asked mi to bawak lagu style juara, but dgr2 my voice nice? HAHA. so nasib baik la, tk jadi..kalo tk,semua da kena dgr my voice yg mcm katak+serak+rocker+kodok+SETAN semcm..

and did u noe smlm NP pon ada GEMPA BUMI???????? nasib tk gi skola smlm!

recently everybody's been askin to go watch dreamgirls.. pokai pokai!! hah. sampai ada pon nk sponsorkan!! yer nak nak..tapi time nyer tkd..

2 more weekssssssssss........................

2007-03-05T06:46:00.000-08:00

i read this while browsing a friend's multiply. is an online friend..cuz i only know him as my fren's fren. muahaha. mcm veri nice larh the story..

BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States.

A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck.

The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment.

When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands.

When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?"

The father went home & committed suicide. Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't.

Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

the moral of the story is to think before we do something so that as not to regret in the end.. so kalo nk marah2 tu, think larh dulu yer asal nk marah2 kalo you can just solve it in a nice way...tapi kalo the other party da melampau nak mampus and macam setan, then memang patut ah kena tembak dengan senapang gajah! hehe.

cheers. =)

2007-03-03T04:40:00.000-08:00

COSTUME pics @ http://baitina.multiply.com/photos/album/42

updates for d past week..trainins, trainins n more trainins.. wed dry run @ nyjc.. we were lost wen we wanted to go back to sch frm there.. dua2 ezlink tk top up, abeh basah kuyup lagik.. so kita buat lagu, last line , --> " kenape hari ini macam setan.."(last tune of syair).. we got down and saw dis bus stated goin to clementi..abeh $1.70 to get to clementi eh! konfem bus lama giler, by d time get to dk agaknya skola pon danak tutup eh! so alhamdullilah, bus dia ada stop pat novena..so we got down and take mrt! ehhe..

Fri mornin scheduled 2 interviews, but i went for one oni..pasal MALAS n nk jumpa members lagik..muahah. padahal 2nd interview was at town, n i went to town to eat wif dee n fana. hehe. so lepas tu mi n scandalz went to mit d peepz at bugis..basah kuyup lagik! den pat busstop bugis tu larh, dpt phone call saying i got d job that i went for interview that morning!!haha. pasal at d interview, d boss got sae i have d best resume among d ppl he interviewd(chettt!!*kembangs*). and he said he like my course even thou i said i dunno anithin abt my course. and he asked whether do i like night life or not ke tk eh! pelik pelik ? haiz so ape lagik, bila dgr aku dpt kerja, aku jump in excitement larh..pasal aku jump larh tu TALI BAG PUTUS eh.. wahhh. FIERCE!! so i will be starting work on the 12th, nk save money nk gi KL ngan members so that i can buy LV nyer wallet at petaling. amcm?muahahah. i hope d job is not a male environment, cuz at d interview, so far i saw were all guys! kena tukar sex seh ginik

so skarang ngah pokai giler ..tk pernah sepokai-pokai mcm ginik sak. imagine larh, dulu gi skola kena naik 2 bus. skrg satu bus je! spent half of d journey walking haha.. but gd exercise, cuz tuari hakim T said i slimmed down alot. k BEST.

will be back will be back...

"popular larh sangat..?"

2007-02-26T08:23:00.000-08:00

HAHA NIE GAMBAR BURUK MAHA BURUK SEBURUK2NYA!!!AHHAHA!!! nie la akibatnya apabila mengambil gamabr 2 budak yg tgh sakit. rambut pon mcm SETAN!!

Sesungguhnya, hari ini macam SETAN! niari bnyk sngat ketawa sampai aku pon nk terketawa depan ini comp. niari aku satu hari pat skola tapi tk boring2 seh. pasal trainings niari mcm SETAN! siangnya had drama gpa trainin, and sesungguhnya, aku dpt watak mcm SETAN! actually, watak dia ok. tapi part aku kena ckp, konfem aku TERketawa, pasal watak mcm SETAN! alahai, kalo depan kita2 nie jer aku da ketawa, ape lagik nanti depan 4774304304803 org pat auditorium tu ehh ? mcm SETAN! haiz. mcm mana nk control luffter nie? kadang2 aku nie, ketawa mmg susah nk stop. org ketawa 5 min, aku ketawa 15 min. colour muka n telinga, da sama colour ngan rambut(yes rambut sayaaa da merah, HEHE). nk control luffter tu boleh ibaratkan mcm nk tahan buang air kecil sehh. pasal nk control luffter tu ah, boleh terkencing skali eh!hehe.

dikir at nite pon mcm SETAN!. mentang2 cny lom abes, niari kita trainin ada sembah larh pat Ah Gong(datuk) . yer larh, semoga kita2 yg akan main for upcoming comp nie akan direstui dan diberkati oleh Ah Gong. haiz. kalo niari Ah Gong kita adalah sebuah OREN, agak2 next trainin buah ape lak eh? harap2 WATERMELONhead.blogspot.com plss. HEHE.

niari kita blajar lagu baru tau tau at dikir..lagu dia berbunyi mcm ginik, mcm SETAN! hehe

"Fana, jangan Fana jahat, jangan Fana nakal sangat.."

alamak. sebelum aku kena hang ngan member, lebih baik aku gi tido. hehe .GD NITE! =)

moga terbuka selera kasih. =)

2007-02-24T09:06:00.000-08:00

hak hush hak hushh! throat feels like sawdust.. chendol have been comin out frm my nose. mkn ubat skaligus satu sudu 10ml pon tk kureng2 tu penyakit..da start batuk2 pulak skrg.haiyo.da berpuluh kali kurestart nie comp..ntah asal aleh2 niari asyik hang jer eh! kalo hang lagik, aku betul nk hang nie comp ah!anyway, i had super duper fun yesterday wit the mcc loves in sch. got Annual General Meeting. ape tu eh? errmm. dia mcm ala-ala PESTA PERDANA or ala-ala kote larh nk katakan.handing over of post to the next committee. and woots! I HAVE PASSED DOWN MY POST TO ______. YESSSAAA.

Anyway, ada larh org ckp aku nie smlm mcm ' NAUGHTY SECRETARY'. erm, OK..mentang2 aku dpt kerja admin, secretary sak kena. wakaka. Den ada larh satu MAMAT nie yg bertemuku for d 1st time, ckp aku nie orgnya bual ngan penuh perasaan. hehe. alarh, wad to do, bdk drama. biasalah, artiste! =p PESTA PERDANA was BEST larh. Hyrul!! kk tina, maintain cool. haiz. makin hensem lak dia semenjak masuk ns nie. ada msn dia pon, mcm paiseh lak nk bual. yer lahh, tt time 1st n last time bual ngan dia is sebelum dia jadi famous ponn. and aso kan, sumtimes kan tgk Huda Anugerah Skrin, tk leh percaya seh she's the same age as ME. yer lah she looks so elegant n tall n everythin. and i look so short, cute, chubby...CHET , and everything that a 21 yr old SHOULD NOT be like. hahhhhh.

Speaking of short, i duno y is FANA is like a few inches taller than me now padahal dulu kita sama height! and speaking of FANA OMG, i tink she's THE ONE. wakkaka. i mean, like so FATED with her larh. every dk performance or comp, mesti terkena duduk sebelah dia.for Awallah Dondang that time, kena pair up ngan dia pon. den skrg upcomin drama comp, pon pair up ngan dia lagik eh!!jom lah kita kawin fana. ahaha.

niari ku tgk NORBIT dgn ___, ___ & ____ !! tooodles! =)

2007-02-20T08:44:00.000-08:00

Adegan2 yg tk senonoh..

fren: tina.. ada papa jahat can send me?
me: yep, have.. ok i send u k(dalam hati, wah nk ng0k papa jahat, ape citer ehh.ehhe)

******** SENDING IN PROGRESS *********

me: btw, u wanted the video rite? i have the song as well tau.. u wan, i can send u
fren:actually i wanted the song.. wad did u send me eh?
me: OOPSTTS..err..video da receive,since da dpt, mite as well tgk jer ah.. HEHEHE.
fren: OMG tina..tpranjat i jap..goodness tina..tgh minum air leh tersembur babe.

AHHAHAHHA.

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me: mama!!tgk ah tv skrg..ada shahril anugerah skin pat Seksa..adik dia kawan nur(nama gelaran kita)
mama: adik dia mana satu? yg hidung KEMBANG tu eh?
me: aikz? camna mama tau?
mama: da kuar advertisement tu tadi.. muka dia budak2 kan.
me: hmm. ntah eh. tk notice lak hidung dia kembang mcm mana. HAHA.

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fren: bday kita nxt mon tau, belikan larh present!
me: k kita kuar nxt sat baru tina bagi ah present
fren: bes0k la kuar tk yah gi dk/drama la
me: kalo bes0k kuar den tina tk bagi present k, mana tina sempat beli!present 10 sen pon leh kan?ikhlas pe
fren:kalo gituk, lebih baik bagi caassh kan
me: ok! nanti tina bagi cash 10 sen, siap ngan ANG PAO. amcm? ehhe. bday tina da lepas pon awk tk bagi!
fren: alarh, bda da lepas kan? kalo da lepas tu da basi ahhh. buat ape nk bagi
me: yer ah bday awk nxt mon, den kita jumpa nxt sat pon da basi pe so tk yarh larh tina bagi eh?
fren: malas ah nk bual! *pengz*
me: insyallah la tina belikan lerr..
fren: tk yah..main2 jer larh..
me: betul eh tk yah??betul eh?? ALHAMDULLILAH..SAVE DUIT SIKIT..
fren: .......................................

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fren: bla bla bla bla blaa. bla blaa.
me: ko pernah bilang aku ke? aku tk ingat pon
fren: tkp, aku ingat
me: aku rasa sesape bilang aku secret dorang bagus ah, pasal aku takkan ingat
fren: tau. hehe. amcm ko ngan *****?
me: da ah aku tanak bual ngan dia ah ginik since dia CLOSE ngan ko.
fren: mana ada aku close ngan dia, bual pon tak pernah
me: den camna ko tau aku panggil dia *****?
fren: KO YG BILANG AKU NYAH
me: oopst. tk ingat sak aku. semenjak pengsan smlm, makin teruk sak . ahah.

k da!boring tahap maxima!!

2007-02-19T07:23:00.000-08:00

sesungguhnya aku baru balik dari trainin on a CNY day..buang tebiat tol, tapi gerek to the max..yg pergi jer larh yg akan tau gerek camna..during office hours tk gerek, after office hrs jer eh yg gerek..ehhe.

kk lets update frm... VALENTINE's DAY! 1st time, 1st year celebrated it with sumbody whom i have never celebrated with..went bestway building nk amek pesta nyer tix..den watched movie Adrift..movie start 1.55pm, we went in at 2 plus..Y?ada larh benda2 yg tidak kita terduga, terjadi..dua2 ngah kan cheong camna sak pasal tk sempat tgk movie..muahahaha..da masuk movie jer, member sebelah aku nie asyik nah pegang2 rambut dia..ntah rasa lembut ke,coklat ke..tuhan saja yg tau larhh.. ehhehe... anyway, Adrift is boring..nampak sah budget movie, pasal the scene is at the same place jer!!ahah. met another sumbody after that(CHETT, mcm ramai date gituk eh, hehe) den we lepak2 jer larhh..

k baru update stengah,da boring lak.. cut short larhH!! nk ckp jer we are joinin Dikir March comp..18th march..Taman warisan ..so support la yer on tt day..esp titun n munger..maauauuahahha..kawan SEPERMAINAN kena support k. more updates soon..

tadi terpengsan jap pat umah..pasal otak cramp..nasib baik ada yg tau CPR pat umah nie..muahahha...Insyallah, kalo mengizinkan, bes0k nk gi umah datuk den nk tgk Norbit n kalo ada xtra $$, nk beli baju2 GLAMOUR for Pesta Perdana dis sat..ke kalo nk budget nyer, jahit any kain plain, off shoulder sikit, letak tiara, letak manik2, konfem pon glamour gak!!ada t0koh aku jadi fashion designer eh..ehhe.

da lama gue tk singgah town..dgr2 sempena CNY nie, da jadi ghost town..nk tgk gak seh..eheh. kk, bes0k shall be the day! anyway, i dun feel the holiday of CNY .. kalo dulu masa time kerja, kalo la dpt 2 hari PH jer, kita2 nie consperm da enjoy sampai mati eh..

sori not being able to cum for Adiratna's picnic..

i should stop bloggin sebelum aku pengsan lagik...

1st THEORY lesson..

2007-02-17T22:07:00.000-08:00

i found this while i was surfing frenster.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken, probably more than once, and its harder every time. Youll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours. You'll fight with your best friend and maybe even fall in love with them. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to you. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every 60 seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

As i was reading this, i found it to be so true larh. My heart was broken, not once, not twice, and not too long ago too, but alhamdullilah, i managed to mend it bit by bit. I cant deny, the memories are still there, but lets face it. Memories are meant to be kept, no matter how good or bad it is. That's why i've treasured the good memories, the bad ones... hmm. Mayb im still trying to forget larh, but at least, i tried forgetting. After all, you never know when that person may be gone. And then, mayb you will regret being on bad terms with the person in the first place.

My eyes are half closed now, but i just cant help blogging abt just now. The eyes got wet jus now..but for a split moment oni. how to say eh. Its like, misunderstandings happen all the time. Da lumrah hidup. We know that both parties meant well. But when a misunderstanding occur, we tried to explain, but the more we try to explain, the more the other party thinks that we are trying to cover up or just plain lying. We both know we want the best for all, but because of ego, sensitivity, plasticity(muahaha), n wadever ty ah, both parties dont bother to listen to each other. Maybe its because both parties are too worked up at that point of time to even realise that they are quarelling over a small semut.

Sometimes somebody whom u've trust for very long, just because of a small or maybe even big misunderstanding,u don't trust that person anymore. What happened to that trust? That person is obviously someone whom you still can trust, since u've decided to trust her for like dunno how long before that.

Its been 3 years. As i looked at each of the people in the circle of frens just now, i realised that the circle of frens changes every year. Brought together by our passion, but it seems every year, there will be some ppl who would have to leave us. Compare the people 3 yrs ago, and now. The peepz who stayed, boleh kira ngan jari, and that includes me. Sometimes when i think of those who have left, do you miss the times? I do. Appreciate the seniors for making us bond with each other, and now we have bonded till sometimes all hell break loose. hehe~, Nonetheless, i treasure the new frenships now. Really i do. Laughters,sorrows shared. Playing tricks on each other. Heh~ I regretted the times i almost abandoned the frenships of these great people..Luckily, somebody pulled me back.

As i was holding hands with somebody just now, she said,

" I love Adiratna."

=). I love you all too.

2007-02-15T14:00:00.000-08:00

Announcement..annoucement....!!!

kk i want to announce that yours truly, ME ,is goin thru a makeover. Not makeover as infashion wise or wadddd larhhh..

But in terms of the WAY SHE SPEAKS.

Suddenly tot of this recently, and ask from opinions from some peepz. The way i tok is too straightforward? not straightforward as in will hurt others feelins. but, like, the way i tok wif gers...is aso the same as wen i tok to guys? HAH. its like, i treat everybody all the same larh, all are my frens.

BUT, one of my peepz nasihatkan(chett!) that i shd draw a line wen tokin to gers n guys. Example --> to a ger, " AKU NAK GI BERAK.BRB"
But, to a guy. --> to a guy," AKU NK BUANG AIR BESAR. BRB"

AHHA. he even said, bila dia bual ngan aku, mcm bual wif one of his guy frens eh. THANKS eh.

Y i suddenli tot of dis? cuz i was suddenly reminded of one incident whr i was SOUND-ed by ada larh satu mamat nie. and he said, the 1st time he tok to me, he was shocked 'by whatever i said to him that time' , till he was scared to tok to me.

ok. dis shall be a pengajaran. LOL.

kepada peminat-peminat saya, selamat abes exams. (do i sound formal?is dis ok? =P )

2007-02-11T22:34:00.000-08:00

i've warned. or rather, WE've warned.
suka hati kau lah nak..
da besar kan.
ada mata melihat. telinga mendengar dan hati untuk menilai.
but then i cant blame you.
Tempations are veryyy hard to resist.
Especially si dektu nyer tempations.. =p

Cantik cik adik cantik, cantik cik adik bergelek-gelek
gelek cik adik gelek, gelek cik adik terkedek-kedek
Cik adik gelek baik-baik, gelek cik adik hai biar molek
Jangan adab tunggang terbalik, jangan adat tergolek-golek

lagu KL yg tk menjadi. haiyoo. will always be lookin forward to the trainins. noe y? hehe. illya noes y. =p

On friday, had my last lunch(wakkaka) with the gd fren at clementi.

one of my gd frens frm the course-metic, Isha. Guess wad, i noe her since my whole life k!we were ex kindergarden Masjid Khair classmates. =p Im so gonna miss her!!! she's going for 6 mths BMT at ahhh..somewhr near my house mxt week.da mcm NS seh. tu larhhh. nk masuk police nyer pasal.. ='(. cannot wait for the shoppin spree nxt month wif u, mas n kem. yer lah, mentang2 semua da jadi career women(including me, yesh i got a job liao! =p i turned down deli cuz of the job seh seh. =D)

GPA drama training after that. Tried the rebana. But so far, still cant catch the beats!!went home after that . din went to party party cuz GAJI TAK MASUK2!!geram seh aku.

SAT ,me, beebee,lenny.dennis,hasinah,nurul,rhonalyn and 1 more ger whom i dun remember her nam went to maam OGY's house to see her because ther's sumthin wrong wif her leg. but i tink actually all of us wanted to go and see her HANDSOME son, whom is like my senior from Fajar Sec. Miang tau satu2 ! mayb cuz i've seen him like for 3 yrs in the same sch, so i dun find anithin charmin abt him? but the rest are like goin gaga eh. ada yg feel HOT,even thou the aircon was FREEZING. mati arh. nk masuk lift pon susah eh. padahal baru less than 10 ppl jer, da berbunyi tu lift!and the whole lift suddenly dropped! ape lagik, semua da rushing to go out. the lift is like one step lower aready!!i went off first. tu pon mcm paiseh seh nk jln dulu. da larh gi umah org, abeh dpt free mkn n dessert , den haf to go off early. mcm tk sincere kan! Was supposed to meet the peepz at town at 7.45pm eh. n 7.45 pm i was still at her house!!

and so, almost cancelled to town ah pasal ada satu nie bingit ngan aku. i went on a blind date, or rather, mi n a fren accompanied dis other fren on his blind date. kekek larhh. the ger tot i was LES, just because i treated her extra nice and asked for her email add. ok, i noe its weird. i dunno wad came over me to ask for d addy larh. but tanya jer, tk add pon k! i keep repeating i wasnt les, and of cuz my mate keep repeatin he isnt gay. =p

Best part, we were tokin n tokin, and suddenly, I became the topic. They were asking asal tk go on with the guy. I said, how to go on wen dia pemalu, aku pon pemalu(CHET!) and camna seh nk bual ngan dia cuz he's too shy i duno HOW to start a conversation.

Fren: PAKAI MULUT LARH BUAL.

ME: MULUT? *cheeky face* *shows tongue*

ok, i dunno wad made me so cheeky, horny, wadeva nyny. yg aku tau, lepas tu satu2 semua da excited and one started saying, 'tina, tina..' in an amused tone.

and it got worse .

'tina..tina..bukan org lain, madu kau jugak. laki leh kawin 4, tina..'

(filem bujang lapok)

thanks eh.

yesssaa bes0k mon. nk gi geylang ngan mak aku carik laki arhhh!

toYOU, thanks for entering my lyfe. =)

2007-02-03T23:16:00.000-08:00

Coffee's Club Mud Pie..NICE!!

i wished i had wore high heels.HAH.

the 8 IA students. im the OLDEST but the SHORTEST!!

The IA Farewell Dinner..

a whole week of sleeepp.. sleeeep.. and m0re sleeeep...

Decided to take a week rest after ending of attachment, spendin the days, YOU-TUBING!!i've finally watched finished meteor garden..started a new show, Prince who turns into a Frog..sorry la all are chinese sh0ws..but mcm gerek la citer cinaa..heh. =p klakar giler!!

So many plans last sat ..was rushin here and thr..i bought a HP!!hehe. den to yanie's house..promised her will reach at 12, but reached at 3pm instead..oopst.janji melayu tol. heh. den met zyzy up at city hall..accompanied her to eat, den met fana, dee,dila,ama & kyn n headed to EAST COAST!!wah kecoh banget ehh..we were sitting at the stones thr..and below us was the sea. we were jus wavin our legs happily..abeh ada lah si NYAH nie nyer kasut JATUH EH!!!LUCKILY, it got stuck in between the rocks and din fell to the sea. everybody started shouting after that, i tink we are trying to convey a message to the shoe to pls do not fall to the sea!!wei, dgr2 kalo pekik2, kasut tu ada reaction???????ahha. so ada lah si cupcake honeybunny helmit(aku la of cuz), went down frm the rocks that we sat and tried to went out to the sea to collect the shoe. but of cuz, brave as she is, the only thing that she's scared of(besides god), is BULU!!ada ANJING!!!!so si helmit nie almost tk jadi selamatkan tu kasut!!!!

rest of the censored pics,click here . =D

I did this, which i tink like 84398439 ppl have done it. =)

Have i ever TEMPT anybody?wakkaka.

yg aku tau, bini aku slalu tempt aku. =p n no, i din dye my hair AGAIN.

Wed was a very tiring day..the day b4 slept at 4am...9am for presentation..den to sentosa wif the darls..accompanied them for interview..tapi last2 aku pon di-offered kerja for CNY at the old place!!waduh..ape lagik, of cuz la say yes..munger ckp ape2 kerja pon kena amek..wakakkaka. GPA drama training was BEST.seriously korang kena gi tau support kitorang for GPA..!!!gerek giler la set kita.. =p

oh my. i was bloghopping..and came across dis ger's blog. and dis one guy in her pics so hensem + cute banget. most impt, he has dimples. and his eyes...my my my. can make ur heart,legs,hands and any body parts yg sewaktu dgnnya, MELT k..

n sori larh munger aku buat ko hampir pengsan bila ko nampak status friendster aku..kalo in a relationship, kena tulis in a relationship. tk leh bohong2!wakakakkaaaaa. n ape nie 16 tahun?love knows no age boundaries eh. CHET. ahha.

scandalzku, cpt2la abes exams!! BBDC memanggil kita !!! =D

k da.

2007-01-27T19:30:00.000-08:00

ku tergoda..dinodai....oh TIDAKK!!!!

I HAVE GRADUATED!!

updating this small space agn..after a week of FUN FUN n m0re FUN.. basically..TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENT!! 5 months of torture..hmm not exactly torture la. but 5 months of having to wake up early at 6.15am! every morning slalu case bgn tk ikhlas nyer.. everyday mesti ada temptation NOT to shower pasal sejuk sngat! muhaha. hmm not exactly 6.15am actually.. but 6.25am!*wiNks*. souvenir an IBM pen. onli mi n cas got it. HEHE. mcm nk nangis tapi ntah nk nangis ke tk..

Last saturday was pure FUN. in the mornin, did a little bit here and there of the report.. and then went to met dis 'sumbody' at bp. met up wif kyn and then to nyp. there was nuttin to see, we got so bored last2 semua duduk pat canteen, reading the magazines that we got from the goodie bag. and so i found dis article in the LIME magazine tats quite interesting, and erm....steamy.

Sex-exercise

Having sex with a guy with a tiny prick = 122 calories
Having sex with a well-endowed man = 18 calories
Suffering from penis envy = 72 calories
Taking off her bra with your teeth = 85 calories
INstructing your partner how to please you = 25 calories
Trying to keep your eyes open as he goes through the same old motions = 33 calories
Joining the mile high club in first class = 38 calories
Joining the mile high club on a budget airline - 100 calories
Getting caught with your pants down = 60 calories
Trying to explain yourself = 160 calories
69 lying down = 78 calories
69 standing up = 112 calories
Moaning ecstatically = 11 calories
Biting down on a pillow to stiffle your passionate screams = 79 calories
Having a real orgasm = 112 calories
Faking an orgasm = 315 calories
Dressing up after sex with your father knocking at the door = 1218 calories
Dressing up after sex with her father knocking at the door = 3521 calories

lol. now u all noe wads the best way to get slim rite. gooo gooo goo try!! =p

Dun ever try to take bus from nyp to town. mcm menunggu buah(ape?) tk jatuh2! met up wit fana n dila. oh fana! missing the scandal so much cuz its been awhile since we realli WENT out together. =) planned to met yan at taka cuz he say he will be waiting at taka. so we walked, and wen we reached there, he called and say he's at FAR EAST to look for us. thnks eh. so we waited somemore at taka. and he called agn saying he's at CINELEISURE aready. WAH! kaki ape seh dia pakai. cpt nah jln. and then, it was pure KECOH after that. imagine 5 people standing at the middle of the pathway where loads, and i repeat LOTS, of people are trying walk . and we are like there quarrelling, and i repeat REALLY quarrelling.we were like shouting to each other.... on deciding which way is the fastest way to go cineleisure. that 'somebody' said turn right is a faster way cuz jalan straight jer da sampai. so i said, 'asal nk kena jln situ ?oit ko nie ada pape ke nk bawak kita gi lorong2.dangerous tau!' and then dila said walk the usual way la which is just go straight. everybody wanted to go their own way and we were quarreling jus of WHICH WAY TO GO TO CINELEISURE. lame seh!! last2 aku da bingit, i said, ' dgr2 kita gaduh pasal which way to go to cineleisure!!" hehehhe..

'sumbody' went off to watch soccer at home and we ate at kfc with the other gang who came along. den we headed to esplanade ..in car. imagine la 6 org pat dlm kereta..mak oi. org depan of cuz senang ah.yg 4 malacindians pat blkg..lebih2 lagik ngan pantatku yg besar.. i went in the last n i cant close the door cuz of the butt!!muahaha. was pure luffter in the car seh. dila cant stop crying, i cant stop shifting cuz it was really cramped.the other 2 was playing around with each other i tink.(k dis sounds so wrong!!) .and wen we reached there, the gig's almost finished. alaaaaarr.. so we sat and played 'truth or dare' but only 'truth' . ahaha. found out a lot of secrets!! n the words that described by the peepz of ME are , " SLOW, blur, gullible, cute, bubbly, happy-go-lucky, somebody can tok wif " so far all true..*kembangs*~ hidung larhh kembang bukan batang kembang!!ahah. seriously freaking dirty minded peepz..

sun alone at home. da kan cheong ah report lom buat!! was just enjoyin the food at home and singing to my heart's content(yer ah bila ada malacindians pat umah nie semua selalu part aku nk nyanyi mesti dorang ckp asal tk join singapore idol. ntah sarcastic ke ape eh).got a call frm the idol(muahaha), Talib early in the morning. seems tat he was lost at FAJAR ROAD. but too bad i shifted to bukit batok aready.(oh really?hehehe..) but i dun even noe where fajar road is!! fajar sec i noe la .kenangan seh..ahah. and kalo he ask abt Teck whye of cuz i noe la cuz i shifted 3 houses and all at teck whye for 20 yrs. kalo masih tk tau jln pat teckwhye mmg nk kena penampar!but bukit panjang? im a street idiot!! =p

n yarh, i tink i tink i should get my own fridge, siap ngan LOCK and put in my room. kalo beli ape2 makanan, confirm next day hilang eh! imagine u bought dis box of chocolates home intending to bring it to work or sumthin the next day. there are 24 balls inside. and u ate only ONE ball. the next day u woke up finding only one ball LEFT. bingit tak bingit tak!! balls tu sedap sngat kot..heh. anyway..they must be wishing they have their own fridge too...pasal aku pon slalu makan bebola dorang! hehehehe...~ =p

Mon, officially started our bintang2(dun remember d comp name) trainins areaddy!!arhhh g0t selection!! tues. oh no..stressed! ada lah eh si cikopek nie baru larh dpt MOTOR dia on mon..mentang2 baru dpt license..so tues aku ada larh dpt free ride gi kerja..so of cuz la kan since ada free ride aku bgn la kol 7.30am..den si cikopek nie amek kol 8.15am. aku start kerja kol 9. tapi aku sampai kerja kol 10am eH!! rupanya halfway pat highway mana ntah, member tk tau nk jln which way. so kita ada larh stop pat tepi2 highway nie kan , dia siap ngan hp ng0k MAP eh. n after much lorongs, passed by so many streets, exits n signboards, baru lah ku sampai dengan selamat di changi south IBM Singapore pte ltd. thnks eh bukannya nk bilang tau tk tau jln, kalo tak, aku rela larh naik bus sorang2 gi kerja sendiri!!last2 member accident just a few days after dia dpt bike dia. mati ah!!ahha. it was on tues too that i cried. stress of the freaking work.. i was holding back the tears eh pasal mati2 tanak kasi ada lah dis blardy fool nampak. and when i went to d toilet wif nyny after that, i went 'uwweeeeeeekkk...'.Da maha tahan nyer setahan-tahan nyer eh sebelum tu. but still, i was proud of myself. i tok back, hmm not exactly tok back la. but i fought for my rights. Being only an attachment student doesnt mean that u can be bullied and blamed for everything k.

thurs was BEST. had attachment farewell dinner @ Marina Square Breeks and of cuz, its FREE.. ape lagik. choose mesti nk mahal .hehe. will post the pics up sooon. Friday had the final presentation. was VERY seram. basically, i was stuttering. but manager said,my voice projection was good.TWEES!! =) din work at all , we sat arnd,finished up all the admin stuff n YEAH!not a staff of IBM anym0re! feels weird not havin the pass. Somethin abt IBM --> i will always remember that sumbody committed suicide by jumping down from the building on MY BIRTHDAY! movie @ Cine after that. DOUBLE DATE!ahah. the seats,the kind can bring up the handle somemore. DO NOT WATCH this movie, 'ALTERED'. the movie is like slowly slowly, den up to climax..and den abruptly, finished.WAHH. tk steam tol. onli remembered the alien pulling the guy's intestines till it got so long, he have to wrap around him?WAKKAKA. and yet, he still did not die at that point of time eh. slacked at coffee club. try the MUD PIE. its SUPERB.but it gets too chocolatey. haha. and s0, tk sempat nk jumpa illya utk berasmara dlm van. so sowiee illyaa..

Currently feeling
Somewhere between trying to convince myself to stop falling while I'm still half sane and clinging to damn HOPE, I found that I could never actually make a choice. The choice between letting go and pursuing something I found to be priceless. It's not the choosing. It's the doing.

I don't want to end up like the others. Heartbroken and hopeful. I was warned.

I've done something about it.

Forgetting him...going...going...gone. wee~

Not that simple, sad to say.

But I'm good at this. Not the forgetting but the trying to make sense of things and being mature to accept that we cannot change people. We cannot force them to make a choice.

That's why i made a choice. =') It seems after one big round, after so many months, im back to square one. mayb korang akan tertanya2 back to where..ahh. korang teka larh teka larh!!sumthin definitely to celebrate abt..up to ya all to decipher the meaning behind the previous sentences..

Have been a listening ear for some of my friends recently. aleh2 ku jadi Dear Kelly?hee. there was this one day, i spent the whole day sms-ing the same person just advising. then there was a time dis person kept calling me up to ask abt a fren of mine which he tinks MAYBE he has feelins for.and then i think and think . i shdnt masuk campur in all this right? moreover, its a relationship/frienship between those two people. but how to tell them eh? tell them, ' eh kalo boleh aku tanak masuk campur pape ah.ape2 ko nyer suar dlm pandai2 selesaikan .' takkan nk cakap cam gituk kan? they are my friends, and i would be gladly to help.

nono..dun get me wrong. its not i don't want to be there for my friends when they need me. Friendships matter the most to me..cuz without the word friendship, how would you know when you will finally found the right one for you?thru character kan kan? but pls, FAVOUR ah, takmo kaitkan aku and say aku yg tokok2 citer larh, aku yg pyscho korang larh. padahal, you two initially aready had problems with each other,even without me in the story. Sakit hati tak kalo somebody told you, 'i tink we can settle this among ourselves. tk yah ah nak masuk campur. '

HELLO? maybe you should record all your calls and listen back, kau yg kol aku utk merengek,mengomplain,melalak pasal si fulan KE aku yg kol ko utk mengorek citer dari ko in the 1st place nie? korek-mengorek(dis sounds so wrong!), has never been my expertise. aku da lah bual gagap, jgn ckp pasal korek-mengorek.lagi tak paham. and sakit hati aku bukan marah. but sakit hati as in heart pain~. u wan mi to respect you as a fren..but mayb you should start respecting me as a fren too?

maybe as you all are reading thru dis now, agaknya korang ngah kutuk2 saying that tina nie berbual mcmpahamz.blogspot.com. but korang2 nie ada paham ke ape yg aku ngah bbual nie?

im ignoring lots and lots of ppl, baik msn, baik sms, baik calls. some have asked, what's with me these days; asal mcm lain mcm jer. some have said, asal aleh2 kau berubah ngan sekelip mata, 'your not the old you' .

ahh. aku pon tak tau eh nyahs. mayb circumstances have changed mie for the worse.hah..

and to make matters worse, i have a secret admirer(thats wad he claims), with a 'pakcik' voice but with a 16 year old frienster and noes everythin abt me, even including my suar dlm.(k im exaggerating.) urgh!!

ps * to titun and munger, korang gerek larh.tapi aku lagik gerek!=p

THE NEW FOUND JOB. till then, ciao!

2007-01-26T21:48:00.000-08:00

Asamekom.. new skin..new tina.hehe..kalo b0rin2 look thru my archives and u will find some interestin love stories..=)

Weekly updates!!

the week has been shagged. preparing for final presentation thats due next tuesday! yep, next week's LAST week of attachment! and then after that, ntah nk kerja ape seh. yer la, mentang2 da graduate. will haf to find TEMP and/or PART TIME of cuz, because i will be goin KL in march so i cant find a perm one yet. any j0b offers anyb0dy ? hehe. ANYTHIN except for the job below, PLEASE.

siapa2 yg rasa diri bukan org islam nk gi kerja..go ahead..~ hee.

Din went for dk on monday. Y? cuz the head was so painful!! and the eyes hurts. in the mornin, i t hurts to open my right eye and i was practically like walkin around with only ONE eye open. muahaha. and den aleh2, the right eye got blurry. its like there's dis one layer of I-DUNNO-WAD-THIN covering it. was rubbing my right eye like mad. casilda was asking if im ok, bcause it seemed like i was crying. in the afternoon, it spread to the LEFT EYE! omg. i was aready squining at the lappy infront of mi. pinkphreak told mi to dab my eyes wif warm water and baca doa. and yep i did..but still the same. so i went to the doc at nite because mata pe, dangerous tau tau. and the doc gave mi..EYE-MO. thnks eh. buang duit aku jer gi doc! and the eyes are now ok, thanks to EYE-MO.ahah

Tues nite was KECOH. 1st training for KL trip.imagine like 30++ people in one room. abeh bdk2 semua case GEREK nyer org. got to noe how KL's itinery would be. will be going from Mon to friday, almost hari2 ada performance at schools over there.WAH!da mcm superstar mana seh.ohwell, biasalah, artiste!hehe. Set GEREK gila. tk pernah2 makyong ajar..this would be something new! =)

Wednesdays GPA trainin was cancelled so i went home. sorry kyn-kong and chombi..pasal tk jumpa korang. bukannya slalu seh aku ada chan leh balik straight lepas kerja! =p

tomoro is sat..would be torn between 4 choices. nk gi interview ke, nk tgk bola ke, lepak at t0wn or just stay at home and finishing up my report!!

today a friend asked me.. , " Tina, tina dulu pernah suka ***** eh? "
i was like HUH? aku pernah suka tu org ke??Yah TRUE, we were close ONCE..t00k a veri long bus ride wif him and remember i was very happy that time.. went out n0t once, n0t twice but loads..but ada sampai suka ke? wad i onli remember was us sharing our ups n d0wns n our problems. and So i asked a friend of mine..who was close to me too at that period of time. i asked, " ****, bila kit0rang semua close kan, did i ever tell u tat i like **** ? " and she said, YES. omg! aku pelupa sangat ke sampai aku tak ingat pon aku pernah suka sape? aku tau la time sec sch mak aku belikan halal food booster pasal i keep forgettin stuffs but serious sngat ke penyakit aku nie? and n0w, i dunno sape lagik yg tau. bcuz the fren whu asked mi the question said that dis sumb0dy whu's quite close ngan ***** yg bilang dia. d prob is, im not even CLOSE with that 'sumbody' at that time! takde no. dia pon tat time k!so h0w he n0e eh? alahhh. mati ah..agaknya aku dulu pernah suka apek karung guni pon aku tak ingat seh. heheheehe...

just yesterday i was complaining to my dad that i spent 15 ketul on my haircut and it looks the SAME. and he said that time he went to JB was onli 10 Ringgit, and its a PACKAGE somemore. It includes haircut,massage,shave(misai jer k) and cabut bulu hidung. wkaakka. maybe i should go. bapak aku slalu ckp bulu hidung aku panjang sangat. nampak sah bedek eh aku tak nampak pape pon!

just n0w, went t0 see tini's frenster for d 1st time..a lot of MY pics wich she neva send mi!!

nie semua time kurus blom chubby lagik. hEHe.actually tk bnyk la.3 gambar jek. but still!so honoured!!and she wrote, 'tini,tina, sisters. ' so sweet.=)

and i found dis went i went thru my blog's archives..so im sharing again. heh~

LOVE

What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go ! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love.

Love strives is hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt at all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You can not finish the book without closing it's chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a
single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.

k da. i tink the post gets longer n longer ehH?

will be goin to bangk0k in MAY..ada package promotion..wooohhooo..da ajak some members..n aku rasa lagik ramai org , lagik murah !!ehee.

got to learn that Graduation's Day in MARCH!!MARCH!! or april. hehe. still, im soon-to-be NP graduate in 5 days time! =)

and if u remember the time i asked if u were free either in april, may or june.....actually, i wanted to ask you to come for my graduation. =S

2007-01-21T07:18:00.000-08:00

the neverending supply of food..wad more can i ask for?

im just taking a break by blogging about today. im very stressed. yeah, been very stressed since like 2 weeks ago. lots of events are coming up for the month of february, march, april. thrs KL show in feb, drama and dk comp both in march, and drama production in april. yeah im not worried that i'll be coming to school like everyday even after i graduated. nono..im not worried abt the tired-ness. mon- dk, tues-dk for KL show,wed-dk/gpa, thurs-finally off day!, fri-production . but im worried that i dun haf enuff rooms for all of these trainings. not forgettin thrs lang club trainings to add in every wednesdays. n npal doesnt helps at all. sumtimes mcm pening lalat tgk tu benda semua. and then, i have to like almost compete with all the other clubs in the sch for the measly rooms that they let us book. sumtimes stress and feel guilty aso if i dun haf rooms for them, which means they have no room and might have to go to somewhr around d sch to practise. but sumtimes, ppl dun understand and some mite complain and say y i dun haf any room for them, when in fact i have realli tried my best.true, actually i booked rooms like one sem ago so that nobody cld book them. but of cuz,as a human i tend to overlook and sometimes for some weeks i forgot to book. nie yg susah bcuz wen i find out and i try to book last min, the rooms wld b all taken up. mcm nak nangis pon ada, jus thinkin confirm ppl would put on faces why i cant get rooms.

now mcm nk pecah otak jus figurin out how many exact rooms that i have to book for just one day. mcm 309480 rooms in one dae jer seh.

whoever said being logistics is easy?

Moving house.

the new house. tempat dia keras sikit.. grandma said that. problem is, tkd org sembahyangkan dulu b4 movin into the house, thats wad khalil says la. din haf much thins to carry, basically we have like 5 movers to help. both me and isha wore np foc shirt; which makes us look more like movers with the identical shirt.heh~ ordered 40 packs of 'nasi borhani' and i ate 3, shared with isha. not forgettin durian and watermelon. its like unlimited supply of food seh. my stomach was bulgin(even thou it WAS aready bulgin b4 that). din haf small change to pay the movers and for the rice. we had 1000 ketul. hah. n we dragged ourselves to the nearest central, just asking if they have small change. last2, change at shop and save, which was quite kecoh gak. why did they ever hire ppl whu cant understand eng? mcm nk ketuk2 org tu pon ada seh.

mi,isha, din and khalil went out again to buy batang galah. mum says, 'beli yg tebal ngan besar nyer'. so everybody was like tokin dirty after that..except me of cuz. innocent tau member. =')

overall, the new house is great, i think.

what the heart feels.

being thinkin lots of 'IFs' lately. what IF i had never gave that letter? what IF i had never said out how i feel? what if i had just kept quiet?

things might still remain the same, as to the few months we have been contacting.

nahz, im not feeling regretful..im just feeling lost. try contacting the same person for almost everyday for a few months; and then one day u had to stop contacting..lets give an eg. maybe because u were overseas for a few weeks. no doubt u will feel lost rite? mayb lets add in some spice.. u were only contacting HIM all along and no one else. so now the person's gone, there isnt even anybody to fill up the empty space.

sometimes eh, i wonder when this stupid feelings would just stop. its useless anyway thinking about it. maybe it was my mistake to focus on one back then. a big mistake.

damn.should have had scandals along the way rite? oopsst.

well, getting back to booking.mcm nk perah otak buat lemon juice!

2007-01-20T07:27:00.000-08:00

its hard to forget the past, when your friends keep reminding you of it.

i was in a very bingit mood when me and some friends(ama,kyn,rizal,kai,aim,illya,liana,faris) reached far east to eat. n of cuz judging from my character,i will keep quiet. n yep, turns out i burst in anger when rizal gurau kong asam with me, even thou i know he's only playing around.kesian dia..padahal tkd kena mengena ngan dia. sincere apologies to rizal..pasal aku panggil ko b*****. thats like the worst word i ever used. i tink slalu at most i will onli sae is babi,baong,bacin. ahha.

till the next update. sesungguhnya tkd mood langsung nk blog.

yeah bes0k nk pindah!

yeah 5th-9th march to KL for MCC Cultural Exhange! =)

2007-01-18T04:04:00.000-08:00

(Edited) again. ahah.

yesterdae i show them dis pic...

and they sae i look like dis

THANKS EH!

asamekom..

im home early today! like WOW..

attachment is cumin to an end soon!2nd feb to be exact..in 2 weeks time..!!had a last IA briefing just now..said out the difficulties that we faced..but overall, everythin is OK la..aready 2 of the Year 2 peepz wants to extend for two mths..mi and tiffany wanna stay as permanent staf..doakan la ye harap dpt..gaji $2000 dok!!oopssst terbilang...~ do u noe that its so tiring to learn something new? so mite as well we stay and do somethin that we have the basics rite..even thou its like so freaking far from my house, but i tink its worth it la ..

frankly speakin, jus few months ago i was complainin tk sabar nk abeskan attachment, but to tink back...i had realli good times seh! and all along, i tot i would have no friends cuz i wld be on attachment with students a batch younger than mi and i din noe them at all... but the luffters shared..the gossips most importantly..we had fun jus kutuk-ing others behind their back!nk katakan, i had the best internship not in terms of experience, but the frens made..

i noe i'll be damn sad wen it comes to 2nd feb.. knowing that you won't see the same old people the followin week after that..and just knowing the frenships may be gone just like that and we were once close only because we see each other everyday.. lookin forward to 26th jan, 2nd feb and 7th feb..i guess 7th feb will be the last get together..cuz after that everybody would be pursuiting their own interests..sch, ns, work.. ='(..so we are just enjoyin ourselves as much as we can.. =)

playing gong canang for open house tml..hehe tpranjat tk?!!cuz ekceli i wasnt intending to play for open house !!n den last min jadi awok2..den last2 dee tk dpt main, so i opt for gong canang..tkkan nk kasi aikin main lagik kan.. ;). so far, onli one trainin.mati ah korang bes0k..mcm keretapi ah! =p and kalolah dpt amek gambar ngan taufik ..lala, tkmo jealous!

sat jus stayin in sch nk se-tep jaga booth..wakkaka..nk tgk la mat2 hensem..nk dpt free goodie bag poooonn. n sun, im movin house..weee..cannot wait!!

ciao!

2007-01-17T01:41:00.000-08:00

1st, i jus wan to sae..

i finally hugged Tii!! weeeee~~ ahha. oopsst. kata nk cubit.. tk cubit pon. smlm org tunggu2 dia cubit abeh tk cubit...='(

n tokin abt cubit, at work jus now, i was walkin wif a trolley and the opposite direction was 2 man. one is a security guard and one is some delivery man la. ok, we work in one building so i've seen them arnd and they must aso seen mi arnd cuz the no. of malays in the building leh kira ngan kaki k.

n so wen i walked past, suddenli the delivery man said the most weirdest thin to mie.

Man:Adik, leh cubit awak?
Mi: HUH?ape? cubit ape?(in a verySHOCKED face)
Security guard: eh ko nie..adik nie tak tau pape pon
Mi: ape nyer? cubit ape?(confused + blur)
Them: ....................

abeh aku walk off ah! mati ah!! cubit ape siol!

2007-01-16T18:34:00.000-08:00

lets just edit the last post. sorry for having vented my feelings here.

(edited) =)

4 mixed feelins at one go last wed.

terasa mcm nak.......

MUNTAH + BERAK + KENCING + PENING GILA BABI all at one go.

mak ai punya nah miserable! it started in the cab on d way to sch frm work. the headache started at work aready. n i was aready havin diarrhoea d whole dae. nk rasa kencing pasal i was aready rushing for sch so i din haf time to go to the toilet. and the freaking MUNTAH feeling had to come wen i was in the cab. mcm mak ai siak ah! mcm nk bukak tu tingkap n jus lettin all out, dorang punya suar dlm ah kena kereta org lain ke ape. mcm nk kencing and berak in that cab pon ada.. n i felt so much like banging my head onto the windows. AHHAHA. tapi aku tahan sak. told the fren, bila da sampai skola nie konfem nk gi 1 corner muntah siol. last2 pegi toilet tingkat2 dua n did all of the above.WAKAKAKKA.

weekend updates!!

Friday
went drama after work..but we neva did any production thingy cuz we were busy doin warm ups n actin out scenes frm citer pramlee. sumthin happened in the room too which onli yan, min, diana n abg bijan noes. i hope we dun haf drama practices in that room again!!

Saturday
a hougang nasi ayam date..wif dearie ISHA!the last time i last saw her our the last day of LAST sem and now is araedy THIS sem, ending of attachment aready. so its been 5 months? i miss her lottss..!definitely catchin up on each other's life is a must.. missing all the chaos back in class...the secrets,the problems..our scandals(oopsst)..the gossips..and best sekali,we both LOVE food.She's the one whu introduced mi to the world of FOOD). lots say im crazy to go to hougang jus for chicken rice. but ey..wads a little distance? i've been to hougang less than 5 times in my whole 20 yrs anyway.skali-skali pass by umah huda pon ok gak. hehe.~

to bugis after that...waited for dila n kyn-kong. called them wen i've reached and they said that they were at the junction between bugis v n bugis j and that org ngah line up for ndp nyer tix. so i said ok n put down d fone.. n told isha too that they are stuck at the traffic light cuz ada long queue buyin ndp tix.so adalah la kaannn aku jenguk2 pat traffic light tu pelik gak asal org jual ndp nyer tix siang2 eh..n tgk pat traffic light tu pon mcm ada queue panjang giler ah..since ppl are lookin n going in the same direction.

n i tot so all the while till we were crossin tat road .. n dunno dila said wad thin they still sellin ndp tix so i asked, " asal eh jual ndp tix siang2..padahal skrg baru jan seh. " they both looked at mi and LAUGHED eh!! MACEHHH EHH..rupanya tkd queue tkd ape.its jus that the junction was so packed that dila exaggerated n sae ada queue ndp n they tot i UNDERSTAND the joke. wakakka.

we shopped like nobody's business..im broke in jus that day alone!gosh..lebih2 lagik ada shoppin kakis. i tink every month wld be the same seh..!!hehe..caught a movie at town citer 'harsh times' wit dila,kyn, yan, n aizat..ahah. the story is like EVERY sentence mesti tauada the word , 'fuck' ! last2 semua kuar dari cinema tu jer da start bual fucking fuckin semua eh. ahahha.

Sunday
went to market..n saw jasmadi! haha.the sickenin neighbour..been long time since i last saw him. and member da kurus seh chett. tAPi kan, da hensem2 abeh dpt tau pegi pasar tk mandi eh. dia ckp dia tk brani tegur pasal dia tk mandi pagi. wakakka. tau bau! met up wif dila after that..n did MORE shoppin eh. thnks dila for the gift!!hehe... dila went hm, den i met up wif kyn..n headed to chinatown to mit d rest of d peepz, yan, naq,hafiz L,hakim T,hafiz S and dhilah kecik..kekek la.we were at dis kain shop..n d one sellin is org bangla. he said the kain is 1 helai $4 ..i was bored so i playfully say la.., "aiyah..$3 onli la..!" naq faced him n sae , " yah $3 can?"

terus bangla mcm marah eh!he put up four of his fingers and said , " no, four dollar, four dollar!"(try saying it with an indian accent). hah! went to vivo, met yan pasal dia ada masalah rumah tangga..den went hm... =)

aku buang dis one fren a few months ago because of a problem..and now we are frens back! =)

2007-01-11T07:19:00.000-08:00

firstly, this will be the last time i will be going all emo. and then, it would be a very long time b4 i get emo all over again. =)

today, lots happened. its still 'today' now and i jus cant wait for today to end.

i lost a fren today.

Lets spare the spicy details..But all along the frenship, i've scolded myself why the heck did i let myself get involved with an ns guy AGAIN. its my fault.. i wanted the attention from you but it was never enuff to mie.. sorry for not understanding u..not understandin ur frens, ur passion ur everythin .. im never gonna make excuses for this, because i know, its my fault.

mayb it was also the pressure from friends around me..

if only we had say out how we feel, maybe misunderstandins, small or big, wun had happened between us.

going away was so hard..padahal its only a day since it happened. Knowing that there won't be somebody to make me feel special anymore.. =D

lots of my feelins was involved from the beginning till the end.. will be busy trying to shake away these feelings as time goes by..will be busy trying to shake you out from my mind..will be busy just coping with the feelings that was developing slowly over these few months..will be trying my best to forget the feelings that i've been treasurin so much..

gosh, how the heck did i love u till dis much? this pain in the heart..

will be on a hiatus ..till then, take care. =)

2007-01-09T21:53:00.000-08:00

lets jus delete the last post.hehe..following my puisi for gpa drama, my topic, CINTA. =)

Dulu..
Kurasakan indah saat berdua bersamamu
Hangatnya pelukanmu dan eratnya genggaman tanganmu
serta lembutnya belaian kasih sayangmu
Seulas senyum di parasmu penuh sebuah cinta
dan berbisik dalam hatiku
bahawa engkaulah yang kusayangi

Akankah kini kembali kurasakan...?
Saat engkau tak lagi disisiku
dan saat aku tergantikan oleh yang lain
Aku rindu..
Seseorang yang bisa membuatku tersenyum bahagia
dan terlepas dari kesedihan yang berlarut
Karena itu aku tak mungkin bisa melupakanmu..

ehehe.

sampai bila nk ok nie?

2007-01-06T23:35:00.000-08:00

asamek0m..

yesterdae a day's out wif peepz that im realli comfortable wif. din wan the dae to end yesterdae but it had to end cuz i had to go HOME. muahaha. dk was fun..re-learnin tun perak steps n changin a few here and there. too bad i wun be there for open house. mcm buang tebiat lak tk perform abeh gi trainins. but i miss d luffters la wad too dooo!!

went galileo to eat(they ate, i was FASTIN< --YAH RITE.) wit kyn n dila. we made a promise in the bus, "sape yg dpt boypren dulu among kita tiga..kena blanja for the nxt dikir barat comp!" k..i am so set in being single for d nxt like 984390843 yrs. tanak blanja org nyer pasal eh. ahah. i haf a feelin its gonna b dila. even thou dia lesbian..but kalo dia ada GERPREN pon kira matair gak kan kan? so yeah!hehe.

and den we headed to t0wn to mit .. a fren. hah a fren i wasnt so keen on seeing.. because because. cakap jer tanak bual ngan dia..last2 bual gak pasal im so tempted to be talkative. we went borders , window shopping and jus exploring the CHILDREN's books tt they have. best eh! we read horoscopes, cartoons,diet strategies, love spells and wadever topic u cld tink of.
ate at BK..KECOH. mi n dila left kyn and the fren to kenal2 wif each other while we went to buy food. and wen we came back, WAH da kenal maha rapat eh. OOPTS. sampai kaki goyang2 eh bawah meja(thats wad the fren claims). HAHA.

On the way to starbucks @ somerset, we stopped for icecream tepi jln. tapi mak ai..uncle ais kream tu pakai parang ice cream mcm nk pancung org! he was practically waving his parang mcm nk belasah org. n he kip sharpenin his knife wif his cloth. WAKAKKA.

Lepak starbucks @ somerset to mit the fren's fren and mak ai..KECOH. frm the cute barista(taste aku la), to ketiak masam(thnks eh fren, padahal aku tk bau pape eh), to batang(fren said batam, but kyn heard BATANG, mak ai otak kuning sak. ) to Playboy Magazine(dila, wad were u tinkin?!) and many m0re. and den yarh..kyn got to go home, i got to mit pinkphreak, n dila..i tink go mit boypren. wkakaka. so we went h0me la..~

n yep, i learnt sumthin new todae. i am not suitable for sumbody whose born in 1985 eh! woots. da tk leh kenal2 ngan bdk 1985 seh. sedihhh nyerrrrrrrrr. =p.n dis advice goes out for all other 1986 peepz k..bukan aku sorang jer.=p n 1985 ppl suits those born in 1988. amcm kyn? jihabeng, the fren, or the fren's fren for u?HEHEHE.

wasalam! =)

2007-01-05T23:08:00.000-08:00

asamekom.

currently in sch n0w , surfin net , n beside mi the 'sweet' but dimple taring. ahh. guess la sape tu eh. infr0nt of mi, TTB, juara harapan n fan club.

goin out later wif d baong peepz but to dunn0 whr. but i dun haf d mood. no KA-CHING!! hah.go n find out la ka-ching is wad k.

Some updates
my life's currently in a mess rite n0w.i've lost my sense of direction.. i've lost ~~some~~ many frens.in short terms, i've lost some frenships that i knew could be never or
hard to gain back. those whu were close to mi once upon a time,..aleh2 are not close to me anym0re. all thanks to the word, "attachment" . the frens that were close to mi..because of the word,'trust' , the frenships fall apart.

and den some which i tot are true frens, betrayed the trust. and frens whom i've been true to, dun trust mi. now sumbody tell mi, camna tk messy? =S

i need a holidae..ALONE, AGAIN. phuket phuket!!!

2007-01-03T19:14:00.001-08:00

asamekom. .

do u noe that b4 dis blog, i haf other blogs too ? was b0red so decided to look thru my old blogs. hah. i was damn emo in the past! yer la ada matair.. so kena emo sikit. wakkaka. n my eng was better in d past. sejak campur ngan melayu, makin HANCUR! cuz i mix wif chinese peepz in sec sch so my eng was VERI gd last time. heh~ lets take a look...

Blog: http://tinapeace.blogspot.com

wen u wan sumthin t0 g0 s0 well f0r u, it jus has to backstab u.
wen u t0t everythin were g0in s0 well..sumthin has to happen.
wen u tink ur happy n u TINK thins are gettin beta..den u realised actualli it wasnt wad U expected
wen u realli realli miss sumb0dy, u realised that that pers0n doesnt recipr0cate.
wen u wait patiently, waitin f0r tt f0ne call, tt f0ne call neva came. sesat kot~

i wan to remember ur face..so that wen i miss u, i can remember vividly h0w u l00k like..

how cum n0b0dy n0tices wen i cry?=(

wh0 i wanna mit: sumb0dy whu cld make mi smile all dae l0ng. =) pls send ur resume t0 baitina_1812@hotmail.com.

WAHAHA! that word reciprocate seems so chim~muahaha.

hey and d nxt one, prepare to be emo guys. ~

Blog: http://sadnessblog.blogspot.com

ish.my eyes lebam.
n its not onli cuz of d eye infection.
i cried buckets jus n0w..
cuz i realized i love him so much.

yep..
i guess we din make it.
He's changed.
not bcuz he's not Mr Nice Guy anymore..(he nv was pon, heh!=p)
but he's not d one tt i fell in love with ages ago..
i Tried to make dis thin werk but i realised im d onli one tryin..
n, whu can stand being in a relationship wif rules set for u?

At times wen im being concerned,
wad i got in return were sarcatism..him being sarcastic
yet, i told myself its ok tina..everythin takes time.

Tak dinafikan, i was very happy these few weeks..
thnks to him..
d times i went out with him.
memorable.. memories tt i will nv forget.
Memories?

d m0rnin we went breakfast at teck whye together..
d time he hugged mi so tight at d beachh wen we were lookin at ppl playin kites..
d time he waited for mi to go up d bus on way hm frm ecp.
d time he made mi wear his headband arnd my head..n he wore it for mi..
d 1st time he pull my hand towards him on d dae of national eve cuz people were pushin ..
(heart was beatin veri fast tt time..)heh~
n tt dae itself we hugged each other in d bus..n i knew i love him so much n miss him so much but i was too ego to sae it..

d time we went to c firewerks..
d pics we took..
d time we quarrelled manja at d esplanade busstop blamin each other d reasons y we broke off
d time we sat in d bus..n he asked mi haf i read his blog n i bluff i said no.
n den he asked do i noe wad happened to his lappy
n i sae "ohh yg kena bayar 800 bucks tu eh??"
keke..ketawa terkekek kitorang..

n tt same dae..
I asked d one he love tt he wrote in his blog was it mi..
n he finalli said yes
n he said he miss mi n everythin..

memories?
But our happiness was short..

d 1st breakup was painful..
but dis time is more painful..

cuz ..
how hard i try to deny,
i love him.
my love din stop frm d 1st time we broke off..
n now as we got closer, it grew
Im hurt, cuz i knew, i knew! we can b veri happy together..
d guys i went out with..none was d same as goin out wif him..
d feelin..none cld gif mi d same feelin.

n n0w im sad..
cuz its over.
cuz i knew i realli love realli realli love him
d next time i will fall in love,
it will b a veri long time

bila dia nk mintak sumthin, baik tau dia..
bila da tk dpt..
da ahh tts it..
buat prangai ahh dektu..
ntah apsal ehh?
tak tau ahh dia iklas di hati betol nk baik2
atau ada udang di sebalik batu..
or nk main2 kan my feelings..
orrrr..ape2 benda yg patut ahhh

bingit..bingit..

but its for d best..

errr OK.. i din even remember abt all of dis till i read dis post again. hah..like WOW la. kenangan tol seh.

and the heart doesn't feels so heavy todae. *grinss* weeeee ;)

will be missin sumbody frm n0w till sat.. *sighs*

2007-01-02T17:48:00.000-08:00

its 2007!!!!

New Year Resolutions

* to find a job after graduation ( definitely not a stable job cuz i get b0red easily! )
* to go clubbin ONCE ( im 20, but yet i've nv went clubbin. i am not the clubbin type anyway.. sori to clubbers. =p but i jus wan to haf a LOOK at the nightlife PLS? hehe. )
*to be better wif words and not be forgetful (sumtimes nk storykan pat org pasal citer2 sensasi pon susah pasal aku pelupa!! =p )
*to lose weight, but yet still regains the chubbiness ( i dun like to be thin. NONO )
*to eat m0re. ( tuty , ok tk nie?hEHE )
*to be more mature as d time goes by, in everythin.
*so that everythin goes smoothly in my love life.
* to see more of my idol
* to noe my idol name (my IDOL at my workplace. =p )

thats wad i can tink of for n0wwwww la !! =p

1st two daes of 2007, spent at CHANGI beach. not bad la.. d peepz were gerek-ing. learnt how to play DAIDEE. but played till veri STRESS till d hair wan to fall off. played frisbee.. den at nite we sit in a circle and played game of creating a story. one person mus sae out a word to continue d story. so ada one of d topics kita buat pasal outin to ZOO. so eg, each person kena ckp one word to continue d story. " Pada-suatu-hari-Ahmad- dan- Bedah- pergi-ke-ZOO. " and everybody came out wif pelik2 words! it started wif ahmad dan bedah nie gi zoo naik bus..den sampai sana dorang gi atm pasal tk cukup duit. da sampai atm, tkd duit pat dalam lak.. den dorang n some foreigners terjumpa dompet yg berwarna cokelat dan berkulit ZEBRA. tapi pat dlm ada cards jer. aleh2 ada monyet yg baik kuar dari zoo dan membagi mereka duit ..tapi malangnya, its duit JEPUN. den lepas tu siti pergi ke tandas..

kk part seterusnya klakar.

cuz d sentence was goin on to , " siti -pergi- ke- tandas- dan- membuka-.."

the next word was supposed to be my turn. n guess wad , everybody was like expecting mcm membuka baju ke membuka sluar ke suar dlm ke cuz its like d climax. but guess wad i said?

"Bedah pergi ke tandas dan membuka............pintu?"

WAKAKKAKAKA. sungguh tk steam betol. tapi mmg betol pe! pergi toilet of cuz kena bukak pintu dulu kan??ish ish..

so d story goes on bila pat cubicle, Bedah terjumpa dompet pat atas d flusher yg tinggi dan BERKELADAK(a word by yours truly again. muahaha!). so dia panggil la Ahmad masuk n tolong tapi Ahmad malu tapi mahu!wkkakaka!!

and then kalo tk salah in d cubicle, it turns out Ahmad is a BAPUK..tk ingat seh citer dia camna lepas tu. mcm kekek sak. nk gi zoo jer ada bnyk probs. mite as well tido pat umah kalo tkd duit kan!!n kesian si ahmad bapuk rupanya!wkakka.

tried to sleep but I CANT SLEEP EH. cuz d banglas near our tents were luffin and tokin so loud. until 6am u noe ? tapi tu tk pasal..tapi d main reason i cant slp cuz d one beside mi SNORES. tt time mcm nk buang pat laut pon ada seh. hehe.

reached home on tues, 5pm. ekceli mata da layu, kaki mcm nk putus, badan mcm jelly..n den i went out at 5.30pm eh!fast game nyer mandi tk pakai sabun..setakat shampoo jer seh. ahah. went to mit deris, kyn n aikin ..saja jer pasal semua BORIN. wahaha.

pls onli look ONCE at dis pic. im so faaaaaaaaaaat.hah.

sori for d eyes. i was so sleepy, anytime can K.O !!

so todae a new dae at work.. i sprained my leg yesterdae..n hurts a lot but tink i'll go doc onli if it get worse..

my heart feels so heavy todae..=S

2006-12-31T08:56:00.000-08:00

argggh. how the heck u remove WRITE-PROTECTION from an mmc card? now, i cant transfer anithin frm d pc to d mmc eh. AHH n yours truly dgn bangga nyer deleted all my files in d mmc(but i backup in pc aready la), and now my mmc has NOTHING. no songs, no images.and d laptop wif infrared is AT WORKPLACE. GOSH. BORIN. i was thinkin of bringin d hp FULL of songs so that i can play it wen im goin overnite to changi tml. but now, ARGH!. i tink im bringin my whole laptop ah lagik senang!!!

dis has convinced mi to buy the data transfer cable. harap2 20 cent jer ah. =)

watchin laila isabella n0w. reminds mi so much of gemerlapan semis eh.. yg tt time aku , ain n ghaffar kena act scene yg last2 part yg laila kena exposed. tapi guess wad, that time AKU EH YG JADI ROSYAM NOR, GHAFFAR jadi LAILA. wakakka. to tink back masih kekek eh..kan dlm citer laila kena tarik rambut palsu kan. that time, GHAFFAR nyer TUDUNG kena tarik!so u imagine ah laki ada janggut pakai tudung..abeh dia pakai LONG SKIRT aku tapi can onli reach to 3/4 of his legs jer eh. n dia pakai kasut high heels rab frm clbhse!!wakakak. abeh aku lak, pasal lupa nk bawak baju laki, last2 pakai sweater AIM pon jadi, n cap rizal. n kan scene dia rosyam nor kejar naik kereta kan. aku pinjam skate scooter frm arip n kejar ghaffar ngan skate scooter!! hah..n i dunno how to ride a bicycle k!!! hah.. d memories of g8. =)

2006-12-30T05:36:00.000-08:00

im so tired. mcm 2 hari tk tido eh!! hehe. k..n0w im still figurin out how to make the space for d text bigger. it looks like too squeezed up riteee.. n now den i realise that i haf a thin for RED colour too? hah. padahal dulu benci sngat pat merah!

n let mi tell u a story abt a tent or a ten?=p

once upon a time, a cute n pretty ger named tina tino0ot wanted to borrow a tent for some reason. so she CALLED up her gd fren, pinkphreak n asked her ," oh pinkphreak, do u haf a tent?".Pinkphreak says, " takde, aku pon baru pinjam dari orang. aku try askkan arnd utk ko k.". and then in the afternoon, she sms-ed mi, " aku tk leh dpt duit. ko try tanya mak ko ah." HMM mcm pelik eh bila masa aku mintak duit dari dia nie. n kalo mak aku ada tent, buat ape nk mintak dia eh?so i sms-ed her," duit ape?" .

n den dia sms-ed sumthin yg buat ku kekek sampai skrg da 2 hari pon masih kekek.

Pinkphreak: ko mintak $ ten kan?

THANKS EH AKU CKP TENT TENT TENT PEKAK BUKAN TEN!!!!!

hehehee.

had drama yesterdae. I AM SO SAD IM NOT ACTING IN PRODUCTION. d script is la KEKEK KEKEK sungguh! d whole script is all abt LUFFTER!! im d stage manager thou. haf homework sehh.. --> haf to watch the PRAMLEE vcds that i haf!dun ask mi y..cuz i cant tell. wakakkaka. will probably b enjoyin myself luffin. d trainin dates..like WOW ahhh. will be so damn busy. thr will b trainins for GPA, production and dk comp. my dad will kill me for not workin straight after graduation.. but we shall wait till that comes laa!!hehe.

camat raya semuaaa!tk sabar nk p0t0ng kambing besok..hehe.

2006-12-28T05:14:00.000-08:00

DAMN DAMN. Its 4.15pm, Singapore time and im bloggin thru MS WORD. Y? cuz the net’s down the whole dae!! Urgghh. So I’ve spent my whole dae listenin songs, watching videos, cutting mp3 for my hp, EATING, n wadeva goddamn thin I cld find in dis IBM lappy. N guess wad I found? MAKYONG’s PIALA TUN SRI LANANG VIDEO! Hah. I din even noe I haf it till I almost ransacked d whole lappy jus now. Its in my sharing folder , shared wif FADHIL BK. I dun even remember d last time I tok to him, let alone he send mi something! Heh. Oh yeah, so been tryin to practice their ragam d whole dae.. sungguh chim betol!n aso not forgettin, spottin hensem peepz..mana tau nk kenal2 ke..OOPTS.

Had borin daes on mon n tues..(yah la NO MONEY AREADY WAD TO DO). On tuesdae, 2 plans to go bugis, but both cancelled. But nvm..went to bedok to buy RAMLEE BURGER. N d mat thr hensem la.. and he offered to send mi home by bike provided I wait till 10pm?! WAHHH. Cas told mi to get to noe him so that I can get RAMLEE BURGER for FREE. Errmm.. I cant imagine myself eating burgers for all my meals…heheee.. so took 168 home and ate in d bus. ..n I wanted to luff out loud k!

(me eatin ramly burger)

mat behind mi: eh aku mcm lapar ahh.. mcm sedap siol dia mkn.

(den I ate cempedak goreng)

mat behind me: aku mcm bau cempedak goreng ah..bau sedap pulak eh.

Mat’s fren: bau ape lagik eh lepas nie. Durian agaknya.

Wakakkaka!! Lucki I din choke on d cempedak seed k. lepas tu tk brani mkn lagik seh!!

K ah. d internet realli sux seh. mcm nk cekik2 pon ada!tata!

Im sorry to all my frens. I’ve tried my best. I’ve let some gd frens down..because I din listen to ur advices. I really really tried to control my feelins.. but its so hard. Yep, I tried suppressing my feelins. I tried avoidin. I even tried purposely finding faults; basically I tried EVERYTHIN. But I noe it wasn’t my best. Because.. he’s still there.

At times I lay awake at nite, trying to tink back the many times I’ve been let down, the many times I’ve been lied to; so that I cld find that ONE valid bad reason to hate; but den I tot back of d gd times and d luffters, I smile. Hating somebody is so hard..when the person u’re tryin to hate, is sumbody u like. Forgivin n forgettin.. is it applicable to ppl whu keep repeatin the same mistake over and over again? I’ve been hurt. I’ve had my share of happiness too. Its been months.. and im sorry that my promises to some ppl are broken. I promise.. if thins dun work out, it will be the last. But yet I know, my promises were never true. So to some frens, if u realise that im avoidin u now, u noe wad it means. =’) I tried my best to row my boat away.. but he never fails to pull it back. To pinkphreak, I wun b singin , ‘row row row ur boat, gently down the stream..’ with u for the time being. Maybe wen d time is rite..

he took my heart away months ago.. but I was never hoping. Because I know the higher my hopes were, all the more he would dash them. If birthday wishes are for real, maybe what is happening now, is a result of that one WISH and I hope that this are all for real and not just lies and more lies. I just hope it lasts..

for now, I chose to believe. I’ve decided to ignore what people see or hear. I’ve had enough of different versions of stories.. is not I dun trust. Im just so tired of kecohness in my life. And I know, God will let mi see the truth one day.. =)

2006-12-20T18:37:00.000-08:00

Time/Date: 2.52pm/24th Dec

1st n foremost...see wad i got yesterdae frm lala wen she came for khatu........i scanned it..lup u lala!!!

thnks lala. mcm nk nangis seh smlm. its a veri sweet thin.. considerin its frm someone i known for less that 1 yr but the friendship is thr.. MUACKZ!!*sobz*

been busy lately, lots of events, outins..berlambak stuffs that happened.. n now my head feels like it burstin but den im goin out to mit pinkphreak later to accompany her to buy clothes. todae is xmas eve! guess wad before dis i nv slp for two daes seh. n wen i tok face to face wif a fren yesterdae, i forced myself to kip my eyes open. but den i fell asleep like 3 or 4 times..while tokin to her! wow, i've learnt d mastery of sleepin while tokin , I GUESS. =p

Tuesdae.

out wif a fren to watch Charlotte's Web!! hHe..cute la.. but d endin quite sad. i heard few sobbins here n thr k. went to eat after that.. wanted to eat at d eating place whr we drama peepz ate after bijaN's performance. but i dunno y die2 i tink that its at BUGIS(wen its ekceli at dhoby gaut) . told my fren d food thr nice n everythin. told d fren that its near hotel 81 at bugis so when we took d bus to bugis, it passed by dhoby gaut. so my fren said thr aso haf 1 hotel 81. so i was thinkin.. that time performance was at NATIONAL MUSEUM. n we walked to that eatin place. takkan tt time we walked to BUGIS eh? mcm jauh sngat kan. n den i realised.. eh not BUGIS AH DHOBY GAUT AH!!ahah. kekek seh. so we got down n walked back.. wad to do. wen u walk wif a street idiot.. u tend to get LOST!! =p

at work, supposed to pass a message to sumbody. i knew i'll forget d message so i type it down in my hp. n wen i got to d person n read out the message, he looked n asked mi, "so short aso nid put at hp ahh?" LOL. so i told him i haf difficulties in remembering la. n he said on n on abt y ahgers nowadays are so forgetful . duhz. i haf been like that for d past 20 yrs seh. ok je pe. wkakaka. but den sumtimes im pissed wif myself too la. blur + forgetful + street idiot. OMG. =p n not forgettin, WOLS.

Thursday

on another dae, out to beach road..den walked all d way to siti hall jus to watch night at the museum!kebudgetan tol..not bad ah.. klakar seram gak. watch out for.. "dUm DuM..dUm dUm..gUm gUm..heHE "

mi n a fren got lost while findin the so called 24hrs clinic near my house. n we walked one big round frm d lrt..onli to find out wen we reach d clinic, that u walk straight jer, da sampai eh!! n my fren was like buat muka stress gila..n said.. " YA ALLAH TINA..KENAPE TINA..KENAPE KO JALAN SATU ROUND..PADAHAL JALAN TERUS JE DA SAMPAI!!" . ahaha. aku da ckp aku street idiot la nyahhhh!! hahaha. =p

Friday

ku ke BATAM MARI!! hehe.. thnks to dila, yan, aji n wan for makin my day. =) no comments ..

Saturday.

PIALA KHATULISTIWA 2006!
gosh im sad that its over. glad to be in the committee which i got d slackiest job..which i li0ke..F&B! ahaha. n congrats to SP( ada some beloved AD peepz inside) for winnin!

1st : Singapore Poly
2nd: ITE Dover
3rd: Fuhua Sec

Juara Terbaik: Ite Dover(Rajis)

Karut Terbaik: SP( Aqmal)

Paluan Terbaik: SP(Faizal ESPEE)

the rest cannot remember laaa. hEhe..

b4 that, went to gif apid d tix. n his reaction was so funny laa. wen i gave him d tix that i kept for him, he was like, "ticket 2nd hand eh ko bagi aku nie?!". his fren was like, " nie ticket $2 ke?! ". wakakka wanna noe y their reaction sebegitu? cuz d tickets are like mcm toilet paper aready!!Muahaha!!!

dinner wit deris, kyn, aikin n yantie.. pics will b uploaded soon at multiply laa all. hehe. n i tink if my hp wasnt off, i wld b at fort cannin that nite. masih bingittttttt dgn diri sendiri!!!!!

next yr i'll be on the complimentary list along wif aim n gang i guess. so sad i'll b out frm np soon.. =(

Sunday

went vivo wit family den met pinkphreak to bugis. on d way thr, kekek eh.

mi to pinkphreak: " bla bla bla... Luv ya. "( dun ask y i sae luv ya to pinkphreak!)
uncle behind us: ahh?(in a suprised reaction)

aiya. u all mus b thr to listen, den it will b funny. HEHE. had a movie date at bed0k.. citer The Curse of the Golden Flower..sungguh mensteamkan tol la citer tu..wen the women run arnd in d story , benda dua tu bergegar ehhhh. ahhaha. pasal asyik tgk tu dua benda la sampai aku tk paham eh citer tu pasal ape ekceli! ehhe. n jay chou din act much..wasted jer. =p

lepas tu ke geylang..gi mkn..n den we went to find BLIND SPOT!oopts.. yer ah. pasal steam sngat ah tu citer..so men-influencekan kita seh. n after we ate, we walk down all d way,passin by the red light districts. certainly a gd experience.. aku rasa aku pon mistaken for one of d FILIPINO's thr. muahahha.

in all, a great week i had la. 3 different movies wif d same person..wad else can u ask for? n to a fren of mine, u said u meant it as a joke. but jokes are not supposed to make anybody feel hurt. n i dun tink i was luffin that time . =. so sorry i din reply or get back to ur calls or sms-es. mayb wen i feel better , i'll b glad to contact u agn. for now, thrs too much kecohness in my life n wad i wan, is to get away frm everythin n jus b a simple me. mayb i'll rather haf back the old mi, simple BUT happy. rather than a lot of frens, yet so miserable. =)

yep..finally updated!! n i haf 3 weeks of report to do!! =s

2006-12-17T08:42:00.000-08:00

oh no im old im old!! da ada 2 seh pat depan..total i got 4 ke? (OOPTS)..and i noe i still look young. WAHAHA. as wad i told most of my frens..20 is nuttin.21 la is sumthin..officially can see all d sex stuff~muahahahaa. n votin pon wen ur 21 kan kan..n wen i saw my friendster is , 'she-male, 20 ' , wah i feel so gd! =) hehe. 1stly, special thnks to the people whu wished me..

dila chombi, amad cute, rizal horny, aji elmo, aja small boy, yaty boyanty, dee TTB, jas neighbour, apid clown, kai ex-ku, khairul fettish, noora pinkphreak, fana scandalz, shikin coffee club, fadhil patrick, yan batam, kyn-kong, ama maid ,ain drama,yanie makku,illya porna,fattanah bee bee,maryana junior FJSB, sri DAD, Omar keris, Fadhly hpe, shikin dimple, isha silat, Zuraimi Amy CSC, remy yusof ishak, kak lis ex Miss P, huda garuk, arip kurus keringting,sallehan sama bapak, faris delifrance, p0h pendek, nora drama, tuty jaga anak, sulas full time adiratna-ian, Nisya cuzzie Fana, tisa, vania & joseph(my supervisors) .

n mayb can i sae THANKS to kyn for chattin wif mi at 12am but nv wish mi, patrick star whu msn mi n said, ' hey 2 more days to my bdae n 5 more days to urs!' . erm, my bdae is todae k. =p. faris whom called to chat but forgotten that the day itself is my bdae.. n i hinted sayin, 'hey u noe wad dae is todae?". "wad dae izit? ur bday ah?" "oh. no la. its mon todae wad. " n he believed wen i sae its on d 19th. hah! and not fogettin, apid whu kept askin , 'eh besok eh bdae ko?' thnks eh. ~ =! n one person sempat eh mintak complimentary khatu tix n wen i ask for one reason y mus i gif him, he said cuz he wished mi .

n not forgettin my attachment peepz..lihui,cas,jj, ze yang n kah heng whu celebrated my bdae at work todae! =)

n aso to the peepz i realli wanna sae sori to.. illya,dee,faz,ain, yaty n abg im. im realli sori ah cuz u all waited for mi like 8483939 hrs. wen i went inside d room, mcm nk nangis la kan..even thou , org2nya semua leh kira ngan kaki, tapi i realli appreciate..n to illya, im soriii ko tk dpt mkn cake tu(aku tau eh dari tempat kerja ko!) even thou ko yg mastermind..im so sorii..=(. n pandai eh ko nk psycho aku by sendin pic of d cake. mcm tau jer aku suka mkn! hahaha. MUACKZ LAAAAAA!!!!

bday posters, courtesy of kyn, fana n noora respectively. =)

so best la dis yr got 2 cakes!! =)

1st i wanna thnk god for givin mi the best family.. i miss them so much.dun ask y. yah, i see them everyday..but i miss them so much. heh. 2ndly, thnks for lettin mi mit wonderful frens frm all walks of life in my 20 yrs..even thou ada some mcm SIAK ah..but still, thnks for lettin mi noe which are true..which are jus passerbys..which are jus liars..n which ones are onli ~~ONS.~~OOPTS but they all somehow or however, made an impact in my life.. even how small or big it is..

d gd fren frm sec sch, wenxi. even thou we onli contact each other like once per 3 or 4 mths, but jus wanna tell u sumtimes i tink of u. mayb cuz we both haf our own commitments now we dun even bother to contact each other. but that dae we went to d fren bdae party, i realli appreciate that time spent..even thou it was onli a short period of time. thnks for d annual bdae party to that dear fren, u brought us all together..

to d poly frens, eg siti, mas, isha, ibrahim, kai, liting n some other peepz, thnks for brightenin up my poly life..mayb d best was in 1st yr wen we were all so close.. i still remember d nite at geylang singapore post n we played truth or dare n aku ngan si kai nie kena dare joget in d rain eh. kekek siol. n to siti n isha, thnks for being wif there wif mi in ur last yr..lettin mi to copy ur notes.wahhaha.n d always luffin n kutuk-ing sessions..d long breaks slackin at d lib or eatin out to eat, d pon-ning of classes etc etc.

to d dk barat frens.. 1stly to kai for tarik mi inside adiratna.. mayb my life wld haf changed totally if u had nv psychoed mi to join..for entrustin mi to huda that dae..n to huda for takin care of mi wen i 1st joined..MAK-CIKKKKKKK!to d 1st few frens made durin sri temasek..dila, rab , huda ,yaty,dee faz n more.. to many more frm citra n tun perak..like naq, sulas, liana ..n even dee rp whu joined us for xcapade..and twins, aji-san n aja bangla..n den frm them, poh, fadhly n some other ppl. .thnks. n i neva regret knowin some wonderful ppl too , azri andika, zul durba(mac)..Omar keris ..yan, ghaffar n whuever la yer..

d delifrance mates..lenny, bee bee, amira, faris, hasinah, martin n m0re n m0re.. n even d merlion mates... i realli miss u all..!!

d AD peepz..ezadd, arif, lala,zee, nizal n m0re.. time rehearsals tanak kenal..time actual day baru nk kenal2 lak..wakkaa..terkonang seh tu hari..

The sri nadi frens... min, fana, topet,hakim, nora, hizamy, ryn, diana, ain, ayie, rizal..n bijaN, neva regret joinin drama, even thou last sem baru nk join la kan.. hehe. i look forward to every drama practice cuz of ur presence..n i may not be there anym0re in d future soon..

the attachment frens, lihui, cas,jj, ze yang n kah heng.. even thou we onli get to noe each other for like onli 3 mths, but im so comfortable wif u guys.. even thou i cant wait for attachment to end, but d thought of mayb we will lose in contact, is makin mi so sad..

k i feel like sleepin. YAWN. tink i'll go toilet to slp. heh